School just takes most of my time. By the time I reach home, the sun already sets. It's night time. And I'm all drained out. I'm so moody these days, it just gets on my nerves. Figures out why I kicked the taekwondo instructor so hard without really realizing I was in pain. ( He isn't my actual instructor. Anyway, he deserved being kicked. No pun intended. ) Everytime I feel like I'm in the mood to blog, it fades in a blink of an eye.
I'm getting really restless. Sick and tired of everything. I don't think I can go on any further. The intention of giving up seems so sweet that I would love to do it. I'm living in a different other world from everybody. How lost can I possibly get? It's hard to believe that I'm able to smile eventhough inside I've lost the strength to keep going on.
The three things that keeps me going are:
* the fact that I'm an English Completer. All my hardwork paid off after all.
* my iPod. Music blasts form my ear every nanosecond. Don't blame me if I can't hear you.
* I'm a prefect. I have more responsibilities now. A challenge for me to betake.
I just hope I keep going on. It seems so easy, in truth, it's not. It's freaking hard. Where's a shoulder to cry on when you need one? I'm living a life full of lies and deceit. Someday you'll realized it.
Ranting on about this is really pathetic. I better stop. Before it drives you crazy and think I'm a freak. ( I wouldn't mind anyway, freak or not. )
By the way, will any of be oh-so-kind to sponsor money for our cheerleading team? Even RM200 can do a lot to help us. Please be charitable. Help us. For us, the school, you, me? Just sponsor us. Pwetty please? With big, fat, juicy, ripe strawberries on top?
I'm glad I have you as a friend. What will I do without you? I love you lots and lots and lots. Unbreakable and unchained friendship. Makes me want to wish that you were a guy so that I can be your girlfriend. But I love you best as you are right now. Everything always have two sides right? I'm always comforted with you around eventhough it's just silence that eludes it. Little did we know that it's the silence that's everything. I feel blessed to have you as a friend. Thanks for everything you've done for me. Lighting my face with a smile, cheering me up, giving me the pat on the back when I need it, lecturing me for even thinking of giving up, comforting me during my sad moments, muddling me up, laughing at my lame jokes and many more unspoken gestures. I can't thank you enough.
My hugs are always for you.
Toodles. Aur revoir.
