Frosty Heart.

"We were meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are?"

This is here to reassure me.

Because I need it so badly.

It's actually happening again.

Just when I barely made it through the last round.

Wham! The same thing unfolds all over again.

"It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over."

I guess it contains truth after all.

I just need to put my faith in God for He has plans for me.

And I may find out or I may not.

But I just have to put my trust in Him.

Very Merry Christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

To everyone and anyone,

Have a blessed Christmas and May God's light shine on you always. =D

P.S. Listen to more Christmas carols. =]

A Brush of You.

I felt like I needed to change the header.

So I did.

I took this picture months ago.

Yup, I know.

I have tons of pictures I've taken that's just laying there.

Anyways, this picture signifies a great deal to me.

There's a story behind it.

The picture is straight out of the camera.

All I did was add the quote and my watermark.

No edits or whatsoever.

I might not be satisfied with it but I'll decide later.

I was tied between this picture and the one as the header.

This went through a quick fix. Adjusted the exposure a little.

And added my watermark. Pretty much it.

And by the way, yesterday's post was written past 2 am.

Just had to let it out.

I might think of deleting it.

Till then.

P.S. I'm going to eat those cute little balls filled with gula Melaka tonight. Tong yuen. However you spell it. Around 7 hours to go.

It's late.

And my thoughts start drifting towards you subconsciously till I become fully aware that I'm thinking about you.
How did I end up in that train of thought?
It me only a few seconds to
answer myself.
Our conversations used to stretch long till this late.
And I will always go to bed wracking my head to a rebuttal to your statements.
Or to simply think of the philosophical thoughts you shared.
Then I would look forward to sharing mine with yours the following day.
And sometimes we would babysit the other when one had to stay up late to complete a task.

You help me through some very dark, angst ridden times. I can't deny that I'm totally out from it and I won't.
I was there for you when you were going through yours.
And I wanted to always be there for you no matter what.

But so much has changed over the course of years of friendship.
The stakes went way too high for us to even imagine.
We knew one another too personally.
And now distance has kept us far apart.
We can be terrified or angry and frustrated all we want but all those years of us being friends, sharing everything and nothing together, no one can take those memories away from us.

All I want to say out loud is that I miss you so much. It hurts. That's enough said.

Tonight I will sleep with a smile on my face as I think about you in my heart. Take care my dear friend. One day, we'll be back together creating chaos for one another.

[Snippets]

It's the season to be jolly. Wait! Scratch that. Sneezy.

Dinner won't be ruined for today. *Phew*

I'm going to be coughing and sniffling on the dentist chair tomorrow.

Sorry doc. :(

Seriously I don't know which is worse, the sniffling or the coughing.

Or the sneezing.

I rock! =p

[edit] I'm a little tipsy. Dinner was after all red wine chicken. I may have add too much wine.

Hic.

Who on earth gets hiccups past twelve in the midnight?
Wait, I already have the answer.

Me.

Mad body functions.

I'm going to be really sick soon.
My throat hurts so bad especially in the mornings when I just wake up.
And my olfactory senses are only half functioning since I sniffle like crazy.
And why do I feel like I'm burning up all the time?

[Snippets]

Whenever I don't know what to say.

To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better.

But I do have the arms to give you a hug,

Ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about,

And I have a heart;

A heart that's aching to see you smile again.

Just tell yourself that.

Because you will.

First day of VBS 2010.

During kindy class.

Kelly: The gravity on Earth is six times the gravity on the moon.
Jaden: But I can't see the gravity!
Karen (Jaden's mum): You can't see gravity honey.

This is one smart kid. He's only four years old and he's absolutely adorable. You can melt into a puddle by just looking at his eyes. It's blue in colour!! He'll grow up to be a heart-breaker. Trust me. XD

[Snippets]

Nerds rock!!

I'm high on sugar right now.
All thanks to Nerds Rope. :)

[Snippets]

Letting go,

Takes Love.

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization I can’t control another.
To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it’s to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective, it’s to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish it within me.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and flourish for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
Remember: The time to love is short.
(author unknown)

Because sometimes, letting go is the best thing you can do for yourself and for the people you love and care about.
Letting go also means setting yourself free from the chains bound within.

Adapted from Smitten Kitten.

We'll meet again someday.

You have the most intense gaze ever.

And I can't say I mind.

Cause I know who/what you're staring at.

I've actually lost count of the times I've caught you staring.

And you just got bolder each time.

Who knew in less than 48 hours, something amazing and incomprehensible can blossom.

Maybe one day...

We'll never know.

Till then.

You just got to have faith.

P.S. I'm already missing it all. Especially 'that'. :)

P.P.S. I'm not sorry for using up your free time. =p

P.P.P.S. I know you're a bad dancer but you don't mind dancing in front of a crowd for a good cause. =D

P.P.P.P.S. I know what distracts you and makes you forget your moves. Hehe..

She's still here.

This year's theme.

Just this Thursday, Friday and Saturday was Vacation Bible School (VBS) 2010.

I think this was the first time I stayed till the very last day of VBS.

The past few years I had to go off quite early on Saturdays'.

But not this year.

This year was a little different from the past few years.

Solely cause we had to prepare all the materials ourselves.

So it was sort of up to us to teach what we want to based on the theme of the day.

And we rocked the second day. XD

I really enjoyed myself.

This was the first year I was at a station instead of taking care of a class.

I was Carmen's wingman. =]

We had a station called Wonderful Works.

To pretty much sum it all, I gained a plethora of knowledge just by teaching the kids.

Not only the kids learnt something new, so did I.

And I'm immensely pleased with that.

Here are a few videos you should watch.

Don't get a shock!

You don't want to be a bug.

Amazing.

Three days straight of helping out at VBS was awesome but also tiring.

After the first day, I already felt drained.

But it was worth it so no complaints there.

Just that the rehearsal for the regional review was bad timing since it was the day right after that.

Which might explain why I had two fainting spells during rehearsal.

I'll just pray that it won't happen again this Sunday on the actual day.

So this post is pretty much the longest post I posted during the school holidays.

Ain't proud of it.

But I just so happened to lost my blogging bug.

Too bad.

That's all for now.

Till then.

P.S. I can't wait to get my film roll developed. :)

One for one.

I got Mia hooked on Bones!!
I rock. XD

[Snippets]