Cave and hot spring.

I can't believe I actually woke up late yesterday. I was suppose to wake at 6am or 6.30am the latest and ended up waking up at 7.00am. I got too stubborn and refused to sleep early the day earlier. Panicked like anything on that day and was rushing around the house like a madman. Finally caught my breath in the car and started to get a little nervous. I was all on my own starting then. Reached the centre and gathered at the hall. Everywhere were little kids sprawled around. A teacher came up to me and asked my name after I stood standing in the middle of the hallway for who knows how many minutes. I sat there watching the television while having a glimpse at the kids. Got my shirt, changed and departed on the bus.

The journey to Gua Tempurung took around 3 hours. Watched movies in the bus, read my book[I had to bring one] and slept for a little while and enjoyed the scenery as got closer to the caves. I loved the scenery that I saw. The lush greenery… The trees growing at different heights… It was all ME. Blue skies, green trees. That’s the way it should be. Not the overpopulated city, congested roads, black fumes rising into the air, the increase of pollution… It’s going overboard. Anyway, back to the topic.

We finally reached after the caves. It was magnificent. While I stood near the caves while the tour guide was buying tickets for us, I saw the most amazing thing. The sun was shining overhead some trees, casting it’s rays on a tree. It was like magic. I wish I had brought a camera. The way the tree parted into two as part of it was ‘shining’ and the other part reflected it’s inner beauty. If I actually brought a camera, I could have see it over and over again but it’s still fresh in my memory and forever will be. After getting the so-called-ticket which was actually a sticker, we went into the caves. All the way we hiked up the stairs. There were two ways. One lasts an hour or so by using the staircase. The other lasts four hours or but you have to wade through the water. I wish we could wade through the water even if it takes that long but there were little kids and they weren’t allowed to. The caves were filled with stalactite, stalagmites, limestone and marble stone. The limestone were in shape the shapes of a pair of eyes, a horse, a jellyfish, seahorse, a pair of hands, a pair of legs, an elephant, a cat, a cow and many others. They were all natural. It amazed me. Without your imagination, you couldn’t see them. On the way up, this little kid Ahmat was so scared that he kept grabbing my hand cause the other guy Cheurn Sun or something kept scaring and taunting him. Everytime I was about to let go of his hand, he’ll pull my hand and not let go.I After going up and down and up and down the stairs. we went out of the cave.

A picture of the caves. Got it from the net.

There was something missing from the caves. Without it, the cave felt empty, sort of hollow. There were no wildlife in the cave because they can’t adapt to the light. People are allowed to bring their camera’s into the caves and obviously they had to use flash and the tour guide brought his own torchlight in the cave. The animas can’t live in the caves anymore since they need the dark and can’t adapt to the light. I wish there were wild life I wish the cave wasn’t vandalized. I wish people knew how to appreciate it more. I wish…

We had lunch somewhere in Ipoh. Ahmat sat next to me. Cheeky little kid. Kept making faces at me but for an eight-year-old he can definitely eat a lot. Mind you, he’s very small sized. He just kept stuffing everything into his mouth and ate non-stop. Trust me, you won’t want to see him eat. He gobbles everything in put in front of him.

After lunch, we went to Sg. Klah hot spring. The journey from the restaurant to the hot spring took about an hour and a half. Just as we arrived at the hot spring’s, Ahmat vomited, pity him. That little kid was already down with the flu and guess he got car-sick or bus-sick and vomited due to his consumption of the amount of food he ate. Then we went to the hot springs. We went to the egg boiling thing first. Put the egg in the water for several minutes and ta-da, out comes a boiled egg. I didn’t bring any clothes to change so I just soaked my legs. The little kids changed into their swimsuits while a few just jumped in with their clothes. Water splashed everywhere as the kids jumped in and splashed water at one another. After 15 minutes or so, a few of the kids were flushing red. The kids changed into their clothes and then we went back. A kid forget to bring his pants and he had no pants to wear, just a shirt and his undergarments. He was so embarrassed. I guess a kid lent him his pants after that since he was wearing one when we went back to the centre. The journey back took 3 hours. Slept in the bus and finished the book.

A picture of the egg-boiling in the hot springs. Got it from the net too.

Since I followed my aunt back, I waited till 7 something and then we went to Pavilion to eat. By the time I went back home, it was already 10.30. Watched television for a while, took my bath and continued watching. It was some ninja show. Slept at 12. It was exciting going to new places, gaining experience, being on my own, figuring out life and stuff…

I won't mind going back again.

Bare.

I'm totally appalled. And disgusted.
How could the a********** do this?? *bewildered*
A piece of land stripped off. Everywhere brown. It's suppose to be green.
Ugh... Suddenly you turn to look and it's gone. I thought I was hallucinating.
I had to blink several times before I realized that I wasn't. blink blink.

It used to be a turf of land.
A forest.
Green.
Was all I could see.
But now all there's left,
Are a piece of land.
Bare, Hollow.

I love nature. Sure, I'm a city girl but so what.
Day by day,
Second by second,
The trees are depleting.
Thanks to you b****y m*****s.

Adults. Honestly. They really do think the world revolves around them.

The need to actually have a glimpse of trees is getting more and more intense every single day.
It's just weird.
Even mum noticed it.
I can't even give a reasonable explanation.
It's just a desire.
I wish I was born in the country.
I don't need the luxury.
All I need is the sight of clear blue skies and thick, green lush forests.
That will make my day.
Forever.

So to all of you out there....
Have a heart.
Nature is a part of us.
Love it, not destroy it.
Appreciate God's marvelous creation.
Hug a tree.
Do something.
Hug a tree.
Talk to it.
Anything.

I'm not very convincing thanks to my disappointed but you all pretty much get what I meant.


Tree-hugger is off to bed now.

Damn.

Seems like I haven't blog for ages.... I was either too lazy or uninterested.

A week of holiday just whizzes past in a blink of an eye.
I'm not allowed to sleep late or wake up late. *Sighs* Where's the justice in this?
But to those who know me well, I do live by the quote, " Rules are meant to be broken."
So I try to sleep as late as possible and wake up as late as possible. Live life the fullest. Why shouldn't you?
I want the holidays to last longer even if it means more lectures, nagging and scolding. But I don't have to be burdened by the fact that I have to wake up at 6am every morning, remembering my new timetable for tuiton classes, adapting to form 2, mingling with the kids in my new class and many other factors. Which reminds me, I haven't rant about the reshuffling of the new classes.
I'm neither contend nor appalled by it. I have friends here but I do have people whom I don't get along very well with in the same class as well. Too bad there aren't any boys, they would have enlighten the atmosphere. There would be a hell lot of cat fights next year with a class filled with 36 young, poised, demanding, violent, crazy girls. Seriously, I want to write more about them but I'll leave it out for the moment.

Let's get back on the current topic.
Because of the Kumon High Achiever's Camp I'm going to miss Huge Camp and the Malaysian Philharmonic Youth Orchestra since it's on the same date as the camp. Damn the timing to the fiery pits of Hades. This camp better be fun or I'll be fuming for the rest of the year. I mean it. Of all dates, why oh why must these three be on the same dates? Aren't there any more other days? And I don't even have the chance to choose. *Sighs* I can't choose to not go. Mum will kill me. Christie will slaughter me in pieces. What choice is there but to go... And to Christie, you know the truth now.

I've drawn everything down to two and most probably I'll take that but I still can't find much information about it. Apparently, no one likes to create their own websites.

Nonchalantly, Calvin takes who-knows-how-long to reach his house. From 2 something till 7 something and he's still not at home. So much for his, I'm near home now. His depth perception of time has apparently gone off.

And Gwen, don't worry, I followed what you suggested. I was tempted to talk to the plush toy though. Don't mind me if I do. But if I really do, you might think I went mental or something. I miss you. And I did not tell him you were the one I have a crush on though you want me to say that. Makes me sound like someone crazy now. Haha... Be safe and back fast.

That's all for today. No pictures for once. That's a change.

Last performance.

Today was the last performance for the year.
Everything went really well during the first show for me. I remembered everything and did everything. That was a total relief. We went live on both days. Cool right?
Performing in front of the crowd doesn't give me nerves anymore. Maybe just a little but it's definitely fun getting so many people's attention once in a while. I gained lots of confidence since yesterday. But Michelle was acting weird all day and stuff, zonking out once in a while. Since we went early, we did some aerobic exercises along with a group of break-dancers and the tv3 people. That was definitely a laugh. Virginie sure knows how to move.
After the first show, we went to alamanda again. Ate and walked around. Soo Jean and I were at Speedy the longest. After all of us bought an ice-cream, we helped Aunty Kim carry her groceries while Cindel and Virginie were squabbling over the definition of rain and whether drizzle was under rain.
The conversation was roughly like this.

Cindel: See, told you not raining la...
Virginie: Drizzling is still rain. From the sky what.
Cindel: Who say so?
Virginie: Me. I read the dictionary one you know.... Once a moth.
Me: Once a moth?
Virginie: Yeah, once a moth. *laughing*
Cindel: Yea la, your own personal dictionary. From your head one.

Totally crazy. It goes on but I'm rather lazy to type everything. It is after going to be 1 am now.
Then we waited for ages, went live for a few minutes, got hit by Cindel, had no idea how Queenie slipped on my skirt, did another performance and went back to school. The end. Not.

I have to admit though, I love cheerleading. It's just pure exhilaration. The work-out, the dance, the stunts, the performances, the crowd. It's one of the things that actually makes going to school fun. It's just not about the popularity or anything, it involves lots of hard work, integrity, passion for the sport, confidence and the willingness to push yourself to go that extra-further.

I watched Romeo and Juliet. Bought the cd. It isn't that good. Reading it would be much better but it doesn't hurt to watch it. The ending ends with the sounds of the sirens of the ambulance. And coincidentally an ambulance was passing my house with it's sirens. Deja vu?

Some people are a disappointment but I getting rather used to that. Thou shall not aggrieve thee no longer. I shall have fun without you.

I have nothing else to type anymore. Even if I do, I don't feel like doing it now. One thing though.

I've never stop hoping. One day, I know I'll discover it. Reinvent it. Mould it. Shape it. Till then, I'll not stop searching. Why should I?

A lonesome figure,
Thinks in solitude,
But it's not,
For there's always someone,
Watching you,
From Above.

1st day.

First day of performance today.
Totally a let-down.
I made so many damn mistakes.
For no reasons, there were so many butterflies fluttering in my stomach.
And Michelle told me that she had a bad feeling something bad was going to happen. It turned out to be true.
I was like so depressed after the first show. Drowning myself in mistakes as I sat and thought of nothing. Thinking of it makes me just so mad at myself.
It's not the first time I was performing in front of so many people, in fact I wasn't nervous about that at all. My fear was making mistakes. It is the first time I become a base and I'm not strong enough to carry Cindel. If it was Shanny, I wouldn't have any problems. Cindel's not heavy but like I said, I'm not strong enough. So it was extra hard-work for me, not to mention, Michelle's hands were bruised and Lai Hoong was still new at becoming at a back-supporter. The hardest part was doing double-shows, an elevator and then a cradle after all the dancing and I always mess up the countings. Terrible.

At least things got better after that. It wasn't that bad during the second and third time. I hope everything goes on smoothly tomorrow. I know I can do it. If only I just don't panic and calm myself then everything will be fine. See.. I'm getting better at comforting myself without the help of anyone. Proves that I still capable of doing something actually right.

I got sun-burned in the face too... My face's all flushed.

Here are some pictures of the cheerleaders excluding me. Alex, if you're reading this then I'm telling you that I'm not interested in taking pictures of myself so I won't put them as display pictures. *sticks out tongue to you*

Here goes nothing...

Do not cross the border of our territory.

Totally shocked.

A tangle webble.

Just grin.

Eye-to-eye contact or lips-to-lips? =p

Dreaming...

What on earth was she doing I wonder...

Cindel and Lai Hoong.

That's all.... The end.

Last day.

What do you young guys have to say on the last day of school??
Most of us already treated the passing days a holiday long long time ago when the exams ended.
But today is the official last day of school!!
Now I can whine all about the holidays... cause I know I'm going to have a not-so-fun time either then going out with some of you guys.

I have so many reasons to get whiney but now that I'm going to type all of them out, my head suddenly becomes blank. How great. *snorts sarcastically*

Mum suddenly gets all fired up, not in a good way and starts scolding....
Without any sensible reason. Parents. If I ever am one, I'll have no idea what I should do.
She's getting more and more absurd by the ticking seconds and I mean it literally...
Think of it as an understatement.
How I'll survive this holiday will be a miracle.
Deluding myself won't help that much, at least not anymore.
All I can say is blame it on adolescent or puberty.
If you can't find where the problem lay in you, just blame it on something. That's how we tend to act without realizing it till we've done it.

I've an epiphany.
I'm not meant to get along with other people. Maybe just for a little while.
But I still can't get along well with other people. Period. The end. Full-stop.
I don't even have the explanation for myself but it just is.
Pretty frustrating to think of it but not know why.
A cloud of dread hangs over me.
And I know is that it's something to do with me.
I just don't get it.
Someday I might or maybe the answer is already there without me even noticing it.
I'll get over it, I know it but with the help of the 'few' of you.
The 'few' of you are really special, you just know how without knowing why. I'll always treasure the time you've spend eventhough I know they won't last long. But it's more than enough.

I might be lost,

In a maze with no ending,
Going around in a never-ending circle,
Tired, lost, drained,
But determined to continue,
For I have no reason to stop,
You were always the candle,
With your light,
Flickering in the dark,
Guiding me, comforting me,
Teaching me the true value,
Of friendship,
The word 'Thanks' is hardly sufficient,
All I can offer,
Is the return of an honest friendship.

A day.

She twirled around the room,
Wrapped in her own world,
Consumed in a bubble,
Not noticing the changes around her,
As she spinned faster and faster,
Moving ever gracefully,
Showing no signs of stopping,
Not intending too,
As her emotions spilled out,
Betraying how she felt,
Gradually feeling peaceful and calm,
Smiling to herself,
Even when she felt anything but happy.

When I watched the show, I thought of that.
It doesn't rhyme at all. *sighs*
At least it's something though.

I went to school for cheer practise today and yesterday.
I went earlier today cause mum had to sent aunty to the hospital.
She had denggi and all my cousins were out to work.
So I sat in school reading "Northern Lights" by Philip Pullman.
Looking around once in a while.
Then came Cindel and Queenie.

I know the whole routine already.
Most of it by heart.
A few mistakes here and there.
And I still can't dance well enough.
But I enjoy attending cheer practises.
My new nickname for now is 'kisses', 'hugs and kisses' or 'xo'
Mr. Chong keeps call me that since he can never remember my real name.
Either he calls me someone elses name or dragonfly.
I didn't get it until I saw what Virginie wrote on the paper.
Since all of us became 'O's to represent our places, our initials were put beside them.
So my initial was X and he read it as XO and said it out loud and asked who's hugs and kisses, everyone else just laughed.
But Sue Jin's nickname was the best. It's so called after a bus company.

Three more days of school and that's it for the year.
Fast right?
In a blink of an eye, it's the end of the year.
It's the same everytime but I can never get used to it.

The quote, "Why be ordinary when you can be extraordinary" keeps popping in my head.
I can't remember where I read it.
But something keeps nagging me.

I guess that's all for today. Don't feel like sleeping yet though.

p.s. Go to www.freerice.com.
Go on... You won't regret it.

Godchildren.

Woke up late. Was suppose to meet Gwen at the club at 8am but I woke up late. I can't help being a sleepyhead Gwen.. I slept late. And you wanted me to go at 7am?
Played badminton with Gwen for an hour while talking. Then she ate her breakfast while I stole her food. She showered and her mum brought us to pavilion.
Gwen's mum and her mum's friend went to J.CO Donuts to eat while Gwen and I went to the food republic to eat. We both ordered different food and we shared.
We started talking again. We were already talking anyway.
We talked about the fights we had nearly every day last year, our friends then we started talking about the future.

We wondered how would it be like to meet our gang when all of us finished form 5 and when we go university/college and start working. We laughed over the possibilities. One of the thing was about bachelors. You can guess what's that about.

Gwen said all of us would definitely be separated. It's nothing surprising. Then we argued who would marry first. Me or her. We started squabbling and laughing non-stop at the stuff we thought of. Then we made a deal. If she had kids, her kids would be my god-daughter or god-son or both and mine likewise. Imagine, in the near future, I'll have either a god-daughter or a god-son or both.
We even agreed to be bride's maids at each other's wedding! Crazy us. Guess we were really mental then.

Anyway, we had fun and that's all that matters. I'm definitely going to miss her when she's in Australia. Remember what you promised Gwen. I doubt I will forget it so I hope you won't.

We decided to disturb Jeff. I knew he had tuiton but i forgot what time and Gwen wanted him to help her so she called him. He told her that he was at Martin and ended the call. We missed called him for a few times just for the laughs of it.

That's all for now. I have lots to type but I'll save it for another day. I'm sure I have lots of time to post them if I'm not glued to the television. =p

I'll just be who I am for now.

Nostalgic.

I don't know what to feel anymore.
Part of me is actually going to miss 1 Meranti. Time passses by in a blink of an eye.
Just last year, I was thinking about this year. Now.. I'm reminiscing the days I had in school this year.
I guess it's normal to feel that way. But the other part refuses to feel anything.

Amelia's laughter followed by Stephenie's giggling and both ending up shouting at one another but at the end of the day, it's as though nothing had occurred.
Amelia teasing me followed by Stephenie.
Xian and her crazy talk about anime, repeating some 'dirty' stuff once in a while.
Christie and her writing. Her constant talk.
Leow and her goofy smile.
Farah and her smile, going in and out of class.
Ben and his constant pleas to the girls or boys to help him.
Sean and his 'stories'.
Azlina's frequent kacauing and teasing.
Amelia trying to outsmart our English teacher.
Pavitri's and her gang's craziness.
Puan You and her slang of words like 'I know'.
Asyraaf and Bob's constant annoyance of shouting, screaming and playing in class.
Kugendren and his cheek, getting himself into trouble.

Maybe those are the crazy, insensible stuff I miss, but who cares?
There are lots more that I'm going to miss.
But the other part which doesn't want to feel a thing knows that being insensitive brat, knowing that the more I feel the more I'll get hurt.
Maybe feeling nothing is best but what if I chose to feel hurt, sad, happy, exuberant?

My friendship with my friend's have drifted apart.
I admit it. It hurts. But then I learnt a new thing.
Friends aren't who you think they are.
They are unpredictable.
A single word or action can hurt you so much but it has the exact opposite action as well.
It can make you happy, out-of-this-world and crazy.

I gained a lot of experiences this year. It may not be the best year I had in school but I know deep down in my heart, they're meaningful.

Nothing is what you think it is. Everything always have two sides. No matter what...

Let's all hope that next year, it will be a new one for us.
To shine,
To understand one another better,
To be even crazier,
To be wild,
To gain new friendships,
To learn how important friends are if you still don't know,
To regain friendships with old mates,
To outsmart more of our teachers,
To work even harder,
To strive for more,
And most importantly to keep going even if you've given up hope.

1 M is like how it is. Nothing's fixed. We are not the best but in our eye's we did our best.
We shared lots of moments together. No matter what, we know that we are a big, unsettled family.

For now, let's have the last fun for these last 3 days even if you think you won't.

Blips.

Let's see, what did I do today?

Woke up at nine. Insticnt. Not the alarm.
Read a little. Ate chocolate cake. Finished it.
Played for a while. Fingers were red after that.
But the feeling was awesome. Totally unexpected.
I guess I uncovered a little about my sister's childhood.
No wonder I found that. It's starting to make sense now.
A little. It's better than nothing. I understand your obsession.

Went to Times Square.
With Soo Jean, Crystal, Cindel, Queenie and Cindel's friends.
Watched Stardust. It was fantastic.
Just like everyone had told me. And just like I expected it to be.
I was the only one eating popcorn.
Who cares? I must eat popcorn while watching a movie in the cinema.
Sort of habit lately. A must-have.

We took pictures after the show.
You know, those booths.
If Soo Jean sents me the pictures, I'll upload it.

I bought a book. Full of pictures on every page.
It's a lovely book. Lovely pictures.

I'm like stiff today.
I have no idea why. My writing's weird.
I'm weird every single day. Striked by pangs of emotions.

Anyway, I am being moody now.
So that's it for now i guess.
I'm starting to 'hate' you. Your bad.

Nothing helps anymore.

Lost.

I have no idea what I'm about to type or whatever crap I'm about to start ranting but all i know is that my tummy's making all sorts of noise and i really need food.

I'll just end up going in circles.
Just like being hyptnotised. You'll anything and everything without knowing why, how, what.

I'll just state facts for today since I seem to be in a daze.
Facts on my mind. Nothing educational.

Fact no. 1
I'm hungry but I'm too lazy to move my arse of the chair.

Fact no. 2
I just finished reading Extra's by Scott Westerfield in school.

Fact no. 3
I got 5 new books today. Ordered it ages ago.

Fact no. 4
Heart attack rocks. And I am refering on a game, not something else.

Fact no. 5
My hand is bruised from all the beating. But no sweat,it's fun.

Fact no. 6
I finished Hearts of Fencing but its only part 1.

Fact no. 7
I'm not angry eventhough I know I should be.

Fact no. 8
Since I'm eating and typing with one hand I'll stop now.

Thanks for reading all these. I have no idea why I'm posting this anyway. =p

Avoiding.

There's just so many things I want to avoid in life but I know I can't and I won't.
I know that avoiding things means running away from everything.
Running away from things you fear to face in life.
I'll just end up running away from myself.
What's the use then?
When I can stand up on my feet again, brush away the dirt and claim that I'm fine.
Perfectly fine.

I want to avoid being jealous,
feeling envious,
feeling angry when I know the truth,
feeling sad when I know how we used to be,
missing the old "us",
hoping that I can reatrive the past.

What about what we could have been?
Or we might have been?

The truth hurts so much that you wish you were being told a lie.

A thought.

We are so busy remembering our own scars and bruises that we forget how to forgive. If we just took a glimpse into someone else's world, we can forgive the unforgivable.

Spring waltz.

I finished 20 cd's. Yeah...
This is like the first time i got addicted to korean drama. Though it's not my first time watching them. Who knew??
I nearly thought it was going to be sad ending. Miraculously it's a happy ending. It left me feeling surprisingly light and a tingling feeling's all over me. If it was a bad ending, I would be sulking and be in foul mood for the rest of the day. Silly right? I know... but i still can't help it.

Korean drama's are very predictable. I knew when the girl would faint and she did. I guessed half of the plot all by myself and surprise, surprise that was how the plot went.
Korean drama's either have a really sad ending that makes you want to burst into big, fat tears or a happy ending that gives you a tingling sensation inside.
The first Korean drama i started watching was Autumn In My Heart. The ending was depressing that i refused to watch anymore of these drama's and chose TVB drama's over them. The second drama I watched was Stairway To Heaven. I accidentally watched it by accident since my sister was watching it. The ending was even more depressing than I though. End of Korean drama's was it for me. How much sadness and regret can a person bear?

Back to this.
Got carried away as always. I'm getting a little used to blogging now.
If you want to know what this whole drama is about, check this out.
hhtp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spring_Waltz

I'm still not good with those links yet.
But this drama is definately great. I really fell in love with this.
It gave me an overview of hardships, happiness, true love, friendship and lots more.
The main characters in this drama is a girl named Eun Young and Jae Ha. It revolves around them. The love triangle here is typical, what you find in drama and real life.
I really admire their admirable qualities. Especially Philip and Eun Young. Philip is capable of making wise decisions eventhough deep down inside, he's actually hurting. Eun Young faces every obstacle thrown in her path with courage and a smile. She has what you called true kindness. She cares with all her heart, forgiving others whole-heartedly all her memories give her strenght to carry on. She wants so much to forget about all the misfortune that befalls upon her but she has the courage to stand up right and continue her life. Eventhough it's all a drama but it's still great. Inspring and heart-whelming.

The cast.

Eun Young

Her again. XP

So far yet so near....

Happily ever after.

Eun Young and Jae Hae

"If you truly love and miss that person, then, love will come again when you meet that person again. Juat like plauing a game of hide and seek. No matter where he or she hides or even if you can't see him or her, he or she must be waiting at some place for you. Amid the countless chaos, just like sincere prayers of love, the people in love will surely meet again."

Anger.

Today was I-guess-I'll-survive day. 2 more cd's left till the end.

I have no idea why you did it. Did it feel great? I hoped you had fun cause you just cause a scar in someone's heart. You just hurt someone. Does it gives you great satisfaction in doing so? Or were you too hurt that you want to do the same thing? It was just damn immature of you.

I have every right to get mad at you. But it's not worth it. Forgiving you will be easier. At least forgiveness is divine. I just wish you didn't do it. It doesn't matter anymore. Let the past be the past. Right?

Don't look back. Let the memories you went forever be in your heart so that you'll have the strength to carry on... Never give up cause you are another step nearer.

God? Semi-god?

I skipped school today. Surprise, surprise... Not. =P
Looks like I'm not the only one... At least that's comforting. School's boring now. No explanations needed.

Anyway, yesterday Connal said something that made me think. Yeah, thinking is when my brain's mechanism suddenly goes to work vigorously when it's gone a little rusty. He said isn't it good to be a God. He said he wanted to be one and said that it would be great if he was God. Look, I'm not taunting his intelligence or anything but his words made me thinking. When I told him, I never thought of becoming a God he got surprised and asked me what about being semi-god. I told him I never thought of that either. He got even more puzzled and asked "Why not? You don't have to believe in any God." But he didn't give this a thought, responsibility and the consequence of your actions if you're a God. I think the reason he wants to be God is because he can everything his way or should i say people want to be God because they want everything their way. I guess it's normal for people to want everything their way. But you can never have everything your way.

Everyone wants everything their way and they'll do everything to get their way. It's when you feel jealous, envious and betrayal's occur. If anyone can do anything to get their way, what will happen if they got things their way? A great lot of havoc will occur...

I'm contented with the way the world revolves now. And I'm not referring on stuff like pollution, child-smuggling and those stuff. I'm talking about how I believe in God. No one can change the way I think. Yes, I admit I'm stubborn. I admit that. Responsiblity is something not everyone can handle and the consequence is even heavier for someone to bear. Think of that. Everything is much more simple than we think it is. Why claim life is complicated when it can be simple? Think about it....