Tired.

Yesterday was Pn. Mishah's farewell ceremony. Lambaian kasih. As in bye-bye, we're not going to see you again and don't worry we won't miss you. Not at all. Aren't I mean? The probates had to be on duty the whole day. How exhausting...

After the whole ceremony was over, I had cheer practice till 4.30. Finally we now know who's Mr Chan. The garang, unfunny guy who's replacing Mr Hong. At least there's someone. Mr Chong is considerably old and he's bones are really fragile. No pun intended there. Mr Chong is a good couch. Just his age stopping him from doing activities he was able to do when he was younger. My whole body ache now. I know I shouldn't complain. I'm in the team now and that's the most important thing. I should just focus and give my very best.

So much has happened these past few days. It's just tiring. I'm exhausted, I don't feel like going on anymore. I don't know what are the emotions I'm feeling, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know how everything happened, I don't know what to do. I just don't know. I just don't. There's nothing there to reassure me that it's normal. That everyone go through it all. Na da. Glitch.

If someone told me I had autism, I wouldn't doubt that person at all. Not a single thought of doubt. Cause I can't remember. Is it me not wanting to remember or I lost the ability to remember, I don't know. I freak myself out. Who cares?

How can you like and dislike the same person at the same time? You were one of the many people whom I know that is actually honest to me. I understand what you said. I've gone through it too. I was too drained out to tell you that. I didn't think you would believe. Forcing yourself to forget it is easier than forcing yourself to go through it. Just forget it, then you won't have to suffer anymore. I wished it was that easy. If it only was. But it will never be, so get over it and face it like a tough chick. Easier said than done, ain't it? Simplicity doesn't work that easily.

Anyway, here are some pictures taken yesterday. We people are a crazy bunch.

Juiny and I.

Sean ada 'gaya'.

Know what that means?

Guys...

Jarrel and Jia with Nav.

Don't ask what these two are up too.

Jarrel and I. With Miow.

Us.

Jack and I.

The probates.

Sean and I.

Me, Sean and Juiny.

Time to say bye bye. I might be emo-ish. Always am. So long.

I'll learn how to. I will.