Several days have come and gone.

I can go by days without the sight of my blog.

Back then, I wasn’t able to do that.

I always had posts just popping up in my head, literally begging me to boost up the computer and type away, or in other words, post away.

Well, the purpose of this post is that I would want to thank those who wished me on my birthday.It was really sweet of you guys to remember. Some of you have rather amusing ways of expressing your wishes. Anyhow, thank you for the text messages and posts. I slept with a smile etched on my face that night. =]

Its funny how I can think of so many matters to express and just fling them out but I never do. Somehow, I have no idea how, the thoughts and opinions vanish just as I am about to transfer them from thoughts to words. I find it highly frustrating but I’m getting there. Yup. Getting there. Who knows how long that will take.

That day, he reminded me, “ Don’t forget about your friend upstairs.”

Instantly, my thoughts directed to God.

Before I came back down to reality and realized he was talking about Accounts. Oh, boy.

My brain keeps giving myself excuses to not do something. My defenses are automatically up, siding with the not-so-reasonable choice, coming up with the same old, stupid excuse, “When I finally ………, I’ll do it.” Which is totally driving me off the edge. It’s really pathetic, the excuses I give myself. I just want that day to come now, not in 3 or 4 months time. I don’t know how long the date is going to be postponed but I just want it to happen. After all, it was suppose to be this month, last week in fact, until it got postponed. Again. When it comes, I hope that I won’t regret hoping for that day to come. The chances of me doing so are highly improbable in this case but I’ll never know. There’s bound to be pros and cons.

Speaking of, I should in bed now. Got to wake up at 6am on a Sunday. It’s inhumane, I know. At least, I’m contributing to something and someone won’t get flamed for it. I’m off to bed then. Oh, still eyeing that Macbook, dude. Still on it.

Toodles. Cookies before bedtime.

You should.

P.S. If you don't get any of what is posted, don't worry. I'm not very sure I fully either.

Alice.

I'm freaking out, so where am I now?

So I decided to change my header. Again.

I'll get something better. But for now, this will stay.

Quote of the day, "I Don't Think."

There's a story behind it.

It was during training, yesterday.

I guess that's as far as the story goes.

Not in the mood to type long-ish posts. *inserts evil laugh*

My thoughts have drifted.

They keep drifting back and forth.

In a very subtle, moody, nostalgic manner.

To be honest, I don't even know why I'm posting.

Guess my fingers had a mind on it's own.

Someone's getting old tomorrow. *winks to self*

And I end up putting myself into all those crappy situations which I knew I could avoid right in my head.

Toodles.

P.S. Thanks lil bro, I really appreciate what you've done. And I do still feel bad.

I'll get by.

I'll survive.

Innocence.

I do have wild, unruly hair.

Today was a nice surprise.

A rather pleasant one.

I'll just give a Cliff Note version of today.

I went out with Juin, Sara, Steph, Ming, Sean, Kanesh, Vy Vyn and Janice.

And met many people throughout Pavilion.

It was like some unofficial meeting or something. Seriously, there were so many people we knew hanging out.

So we went for a movie and did all the usual stuff.

Ended up watching Under the Mountain which turned out to be just average. Nothing spectacular or what-not.

Then we went to look for Yu Kit, Peter, Kai Hoong and Ben.

And went for lunch.

The boys decided to head to Times Square to play in the arcade. Boys.

The remaining girls, Juin, Sara, Steph and I stayed at Pavilion and ate and shopped.

The nice surprise was when Juin and Sara got together and started distancing themselves from Steph and I.

Then they walked into Times and right to San Terri Cottage and bought two slices of cake.

At first, Steph and I thought they were feeling hungry and wanted to eat.

Turns out, they were for Steph's belated birthday and for my advanced birthday.

The both of us were a little taken aback.

I sure did not expect it. I doubt Steph did either.

There was a candle, it was then lighted up.

Steph and I made our wish.

Unfortunately, after Steph took one bite, she had to leave.

So Juin and Sara sat, talking, watching me eat.

Then, Juin had to leave.

So it was just Sara and I.

It was a nice gesture, what Juin and Sara did.

They really made my day.

I'm still smiling from then.

Thank you again. The both of you.

I have awesome hair. XD

When I got back, I was in a lazy, nonchalant mood.

Since I haven't pick up my camera to take a self-portrait in a long time, I decided to do so.

And I loved the shirt I was wearing, which is an added bonus.

Mum said the shirt was perfect for me. I laughed out loud to that. What she actually meant was the statement. It fits me.

Looking at this, I realize that I'm rather tan.

Actually, very. Oh boy...

These are the three outtakes that I'm rather fond of.

I decided to change my header since it has been there for sometime now and it just bores me.

But I doubt the current header will stay for more than a couple of days.

I'm not satisfied with it.

All the editing took like, only several minutes.

When I have the time or when I have Adobe Photoshop, I might give it another go.

But we'll see.

SOOC. Saw this pink string lying around and decided to have fun with it.

Which reminds me, I desperately need a haircut.

My hair is getting out of control.

Plus, the weather is awfully hot and humid.

Hopefully, the long, unruly hair will be gone by Friday.

Oh, and Sara, thanks again for you're advanced birthday gift.

I start on it as soon as I finish The Last Song.

The feelings were there. All over again.

That's all for today.

Toodles.

A Wish your Heart Makes.

I have no idea why, but I have been on caffeine drinks for the past several days, late at night, for no apparent reason.

Classic example for today, a can of Coke at around 10pm.

Brilliant.

Anyway, I miss the midnight deadline. Sorry. My bad. Got carried away. Better late then never.

Only one person will know what I'm talking about.

Doesn't matter.

So, wish list up for grabs.

I think I'll make a tradition out of this.

Since it's my third year doing it.

I'll start with Books.

Definitely.

1. Along For the Ride by Sarah Dessen.

2. Something, Maybe by Elizabeth Scott.

3. Once Was Lost by Sara Zarr.

4. The Last Song by Nicholas Spark

EDIT: I just got this book. I can't wait to get started. Wait... why am I still here, blogging?

5. The Sky is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson

6. Sweethearts by Sara Zarr

Next.

Next.

I don't know. *racks brain*

Okay. After endless of brain racking, this was all I could come up with:

A huggable Patrick would be nice.

A Macbook would come in really handy.

An Adobe Photoshop software would do wonders for my pictures.

EDIT: A beanie to cover up my messy hair. (I just thought of it while brushing my hair. =p)

Time. Just a day. To spent with all of my close friends.

Does a I-love-marine-life-or-anything-to-do-with-underwater theme help?

A gym bag? I just realized this today when I went for practice as my bag was overstuffed.

My brain cells are fried from all the excessive thinking.

This post would probably go by unnoticed and people would just stumble by it thinking the pictures aren't that bad-looking.

So I conclude that I'm done.

So you, you and you finally have my input and therefore, I have finally answered your questions.

I did this merely to entertain myself while waiting for the effects of coke to wear off.

My phone went smack flat.

Wasn't in the mood to go surfing on the net.

And Chris bailed on me and went off to bed. (Sorry, I just had to gloat once. =p)

Now that the effects are finally wearing off, I'm off to bed.

Toodles.

All Along.

Today you said you were sorry.

How can you be sorry for something that you do not have control over?

It just doesn't add up.

Neither does it make any sense.

So don't say you're sorry.

At least not for that.

I can't really conjure my feelings out right now on how I actually feel.

But I know for sure that it isn't your fault.

There isn't anyone at fault here in the first place.

It's just life. That's how life is.

As hard as we try to change the way it is, there's a limit to as far as we can go.

We may not like the outcome.

But so what?

We brought it on ourselves.

If you really want to put the blame on someone, then you can go pointing fingers at one another.

For it is really our own self to be put to blame.

Right from the very start, we already knew.

We did.

But we caved in to the image created by the people amongst us.

Their expectations.

Their visions.

Their desires.

Their perceptions.

Not ours.

Theirs.

And the three of us got reeled along.

On a rollercoaster ride that had more downs then ups.

Go figure.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that, don't be sorry.

Instead, feel blessed.

For we went through this turmoil of emotions, conflicts and happiness together.

I'm sure it taught us much.

And it's still a lesson for us at the time being.

We'll make it through.

I'm sure of it.

After all we're separate individuals with our own take of the world,

Once in a while fusing together with similar thoughts.

So don't say you're sorry.

Say anything but that.

.

You guys sure did.

Imprinted I should add.

Cotton.

I just finished a Venti-sized coffee from Starbucks.

I'm bloated and really hyped up.

Which is not a really good idea since:

a) I have to wake up early tomorrow.

b) I have a 4 hour practice to look forward to.

c) I've been having coffee, like every day? It's bad.

This really blew my mind.

I love the whole concept and idea.

It's just like being in a dream.

Right smack in it.

I would really love to rant and have a long-ish post but someone has to use the computer.

The beauty of having you're own laptop-slash-computer.

Oh well..

Someday, Kelly. Someday.

Anway, I'll be updating the following day.

I owe peeps a post.

And I'm sure I'm not going to be able to get away with it.

That plan totally back-fired.

Shucks.

Till then.

Just being Kells. =]

My Part of the Deal.

Okay, I'll stick to my part of the deal and post the agreement between CWK and I.

SURAT JAWAPAN KEDATANGAN ENCIK/CIK

Saya,Kok Xiao Ran, dari SMK Seri Bintang Selatan, akan hadir/tidak akan menghadiriIce Skating pada Cuti Persekolahan Bulan Jun.

Tandatangan

___KXR____
(KOK XIAO RAN)

I find it hilarious, but I'll stick to my part of the deal so I won't end up ditching people again.

My list is as long as it is already. Scout's honour.

So till the skating days then.

I do miss it and I'm looking forward to skating again.

I've been having tummy ache from all the laughing I've done.

I know Zhe Xin posted this on Facebook ; "Someone sack Xiao Ran from St.John..She's a murderer!"

All I did was treat him.

For his wound.

That's all.

*bursts into laughter*

Okay, fine.

I did add a little pressure while putting a plaster on his wound.

So?

If I'm a murderer, how come he's still alive and posting on Facebook? Hah.

Got you there.

Oh, and thanks lil bro.

Guess you'll be having fun on Tuesday. =]

Ciao.

Time for dinner.

Weeks back.

I promised Juiny that I'll post the pictures of that day here yesterday.

But I didn't.

So Juin, sorry for the delay.

Here they are now.

Sometime, several weeks back, in February, we had a surprise party for this special girl.

ATTENTION: You are only allowed to do this if you're under 18.

(No one really cares if you're a kid. =p)

Oh man.. I laughed so hard while taking this picture.

This surprise thing was organized by Janice and Ming.

Juiny was really suspicious but luckily she didn't figure it out.

It was really sweet of the Janice and Ming to do such a thing for a friend.

That came from someone who love surprises, especially good ones.

I can only imagine how one feels when a group of friends throw something like that.

The only thing I know is that I would end up smiling for days.

EDIT: Removed as requested. =]

While everyone was busy sitting down, basically doing nothing, Van became my model and posed for me. Hah.

I hope Juiny had a good time and enjoyed it.

I'm not really in a post-ish mood today. So I'll cut it short.

Till then.

I don't know how I feel about it.

It's just coming.

One thing I know for sure,

I doubt anyone would remember.