The time has finally come.
It's the dreaded month for some, the awaited month for others.
Honestly, part of me wants it over and done with.
Another part of me longs for more time to study and prepare myself.
But no matter how much time I take, I know I'll never be ready this way.
Sighs.
There's so much going on right now.
Too much happening all at once.
It's a flurry of emotion.
I think I've stopped resisting it all and just taking it in as they come.
The good, the bad, the worse.
It's all part of growing up.
I have many regrets.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
Except to try to fix what's right and learn from the wrong.
I feel that I keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
And trust me, there were so many times I felt like giving it all up.
There still are.
Somehow, I managed to push myself.
And I'm still forging on till this day.
I have no idea why this is out here.
But somehow, I feel that it's time to let it all out.
This year hasn't been easy for me.
And it's not going to get easier after this.
In fact, it's only the beginning.
And I acknowledge it.
I'm really grateful and thankful for the people around me.
I don't know what will become of me if not for them.
But let's not go there, for I am blessed to have them.
Rekindled friendship.
It's such an amazing experience.
Ethereal almost.
I wished though that someone did not bring a certain person up.
A torrent of emotions and a treasure full of memories just washed back right up for me when it happened.
Some people cannot be replaced no matter how hard you try.
I, for one can speak from experience.
And I've given up on trying.
You just got to accept that people can't be replaced.
Especially those that leave permanent marks all over your heart.
I'm going to end abruptly.
If you see me here, it means I'm alive and breathing.
If not, well, I'm still be alive but barely.
Oh, I just outran a dog. Teehee.
Watch. =]
