Back on.....

CHERUB. Woo-Hoo. Unbelievable.
*laughs like a maniac*

Was totally bored so I decided to visit Cherub. The next thing I know, I'm addicted to it again.
I stopped going for a very long time. I actually miss it. Time to pollute my mind. Don't you go thinking those stuff. What I meant was time to fill my brain with lots of knowledge. *grins*
Lots have change, just like us.

p.s. Guess what?? My cousin's cousin is in the same school as me. I just found out on the day after Boxing Day. All these while, I stared at her like a passer-by and she's actually related to me all along. But I did wish it was a guy. *twinge of guilt* At least I have someone related to me, schooling with me. Even if we're distant relatives.

p.p.s I've just gotten new earphones. Yay. *screams with joy* Time to burst my eardrums. Just kidding...

It's CHRISTMAS!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

It's Christmas. I mean a day after it.
Christmas was kinda of a bore to me since I was stuck at home till dinnertime doing spring cleaning. Think of that. Spring cleaning on Christmas day.
Went out to watch a movie with my brother and came home around midnight.
Slept at 2am doing my own stuff. Woke up around 11 today. That's considered early compared to some of you. *grins widely*

Christmas Eve

This was an absolute blast. Woke up, mope around the house for a long while and watched the television. When I went online, chatted with Christie for a while and I went to sleep. Around 4pm, mum rushed into the room saying we were late. I was still in a daze then and finally realized what she meant. We went to visit Ms. Arnold. She knew my family before I was even born. She's around 80 years old now and is still teaching primary kids. She stopped teaching secondary school pupils. *sniffles* I really liked her. Anyways, visited her and she still looked the same. She gave lots of good advise, talked with my mother while my sister and I sat there. I was forced to drink Soya Milk cause mum couldn't drink cold drinks and sister was sick so I had to drink it to be polite. This is the last time I'm going to drink anything that has Soya in it. ughh.. I felt sick all the way back. The best part was going to church for the Christmas party and countdown.

I reached church at 6pm and thought that I would be late. Vicki called and asked me to go by myself without her since she was still last minute shopping and would be a little late. I went straight to Sanctuary of Praise and found no one there so I went to Solomon Hall and found Aaron. Alone. All by himself. He was playing bass. Both of us were shocked to see one another. I asked him where were the others and he's answer was not here. He stopped playing and asked me to teach him the guitar. Then the boys came. Aaron was trying to make Navian jealous and asked me to play along. Vicki came in and we exchanged gifts. I just give a vague summary of the activities I did in church. Not the full thing. If you read Vicki's blog, you pretty much know the whole thing. Vicki and I mingled around in Solomon Hall and called Jeff and Yu Kit. Yu Kit said he could come one minute and in the next minute he said he couldn't. So we made frantic calls. In the end, Tiong Chin and Yu Kit came.

We were late for prayer and just went in to Sanctuary of Praise. After prayer, we had a final briefing. Vicki and I were usherers. So we went to find Pauline and asked her what to do. Since we were helping out, we got to eat first. Did my job and lost Vicki. We got parted for a brief moment. Around 9.15am, we went up to Sanctuary of Praise and and rested for a while. After that, all the guests were allowed to go in and the usherers made a sort-of-like tunnel for them to get in. Some of the guests were afraid to get in credits to us and tried to squeeze through the gaps. *laughs involuntarily*

We abandoned Tiong Chin and Yu Kit. What fine hosts Vicki and I make. We couldn't help it. We were in the choir. The programme started with the opening dance, then "Salt Power" which was singing, followed by a video clip and the drama. The choir and drama were involved in this. Everything went out well. The drama came out, did their thing, the same thing for the choir. Halfway through the party or service, Micheal called all the youths from the English Congregation to help clean up Solomon Hall. Vicki and I and a few other people help to set up the hall the other day and now we've cleaning it up and arranging the chairs for next day's service. Vicki's candy cane brook so she demanded why and asked for some glue. Smart of her, ain't it?

After finishing, we went to the fourth floor to watch. It had a pretty good view of everything. Vicki was in the room with Navian while I was somewhere out with the other guys. Everything went on till it was countdown time. Balloons streamed down and everyone screamed and shouted. Vicki and I rushed back down. We wished everyone Merry Christmas. Balloons were everywhere and it was burst by people. Everyone loves balloons. *smiles* Tiong Chin kept bursting it in my ears with the help of Yu Kit. We had photo taking after that. That was hilarious. The boys carried Michael. If you saw it, you'll burst our laughing. Then a guy, I forgot what was his name, carried Seng all by himself. We cleaned up the hall for the Cantonese service later in the morning. Greeted everyone I knew. Talked, hanged around and finally it was time to go home. It was past 1 am.

I slept over at Vicki's house. Ate KFC as supper and went to bed. But we did not sleep. We ended up talking to around 5am I guess. The next day was Christmas.

I received lots of text from my friends and family. That made me really delighted. I had the most fun-est Christmas Eve compared to my thirteen years on earth. I don't think I'll ever forget it. I hope the next Christmas eve will be as fun too. *cross my fingers and pray hard*

p.s I got a pretty necklace from Vicki. The pendant was a cross. I got a snow globe from Navian. And I'm still waiting for my present from Aaron.He owes me and Vicki one. *sticks tongue out*

Till more candy canes, gospel music, dear friends, santa clause, snow globes and presents.

Appreciation.

You silenced me with your sarcasm

Amazed me by your honesty

Dumbfounded me with your sentimentality

Treated me as someone worthy

I'm blessed to have known you

Exhilarated to have found you

Seconds go ticking by

Minutes go passing by

Hours ended up

With us bonding

Casual friendship

Growing stronger each day

Do I regret it?

I'll be committing a blasphemy if I said so

You taught me the greatest gift of all

Thoughtfulness

Caring secretly while hiding it

Unspoken love of care

I hope you know how much your FRIENDSHIP means to me

May God bless you forevermore

Prayer

The best gift for anyone to receive

TAGGED again!

I think this is the tag that Cheah-Yee reminded me about, stating that I got tagged.

My second try on being tagged. =]

PartOne : OnTheOutside.

* name.
- Xiao Ran

* date of birth.
- 20th March

* current status.
- Doesn't concern you, does it? =p
Single but unavailable.

* eye color.
- Black, maybe a little brown if seen upclose.

* hair color.
- Black but with a little brown when sunlight falls on my head.

* righty or lefty.
- Righty.

* zodiac sign.
- Pieces.


PartTwo : OnTheInside.

* heritage.
- Purely Chinese. [ I think. =p ]

* you fear.
- Losing people that I care and love.

* your weakness.
- Sweets. Ice-cream. And the action of not thinking.

* your perfect pizza.
- Any pizza with a loved one is perfect for me. =] *grins idiotically*


PartThree : YesterdayToday&Tomorrow.

* your first thoughts after waking up.
- "Can I go back to sleep?"

* your bedtime.
- Neither late nor early. Around 11 or 12 ish...

* your most missed memory.
- There are lots but I think it's being with Sarah, Sylvia and her family especially Micheal.

PartFour : YourPick.

* pepsi or coke.
- Neither. They taste the same, don't they?

* McD's or burger king.
- McD's.

* single or group dates.
- Single? Group? Not sure.

* adidas or nike.
- Nike.

* lipton tea or nestea.
- Why do I even bother to answer?? [ I'm being a spoilsport, I know. ]

* chocolate or vanilla.
- Chocolate. =]

* cappucino or coffee.
- Cappucino.


PartFive : DoYou...

* smoke.
- Never even thought of it.

* curse.
- Feel like it but no..

* drink.
- With my parents around but I don't get why adults love them.

PartSix : InThePastMonth.

* drank alcohol.
- Don't think so.

* gone to the mall.
- Yup.

* been on stage.
- Not exactly a stage but it's counted, I guess as I was in front of 270 something people during HAC presentation.

* eaten sushi.
- Yup.

* dyed your hair.
- Nope. Someday I will.


PartSeven : HaveYouEver.

* played a stripping game.
- Never even thought of it.

* changed who you were to fit in.
- Maybe. But I'll realized that it isn't worth it.


PartEight : Age.

* you re hoping to be married.
- In the next who-knows-how-many years? Never gave it a thought.


PartNine : In A Guy / Girl.

* best eye color.
- Hazel brown or blue.

* hair color.
- Brownish-black.

* short or long hair.
- Short.


PartTen : WhatWereYouDoing.

* 1 minute ago.
- Typing.

* 1 hour ago.
- Watching the television and on the computer.

* 1 month ago.
- Being in my own little bubble. Going to school and back.

* 1 year ago.
- In primary school.


PartEleven : FinishTheSentences.

* A strong desire to meet you guys again.

* Yearning for something new, challenging and bold.

* Hoping that the holidays will be longer.

* Praying hard that I'll have the perseverance to be a Completer.

* Ideas and inspiration will come to me as soon as possible.

* Living without a sole purpose but still breathing.

* In a dire need to do something meaningful and benefitting.

* I have no idea why I'm doing this so I'll stop right away.


PartTwelve : Tag5People.

1. Sara
2. Christie
3. Sin Mun
4. Amelia
5. Shanny

TAGGED!

I got tagged by so many people that I finally decided to do it. Besides, its not like I have anything interesting to blog about.

My first try on this tag thingy. =p

Rules:
1. Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
2. Delete question no.20 and add one of your own question instead.
3. Tag 8 victims to do this tag.

Questions:

1.What is your dream when you are still a small kid?
I can't really remember cause all I can actually remember is being hyper all the time but I think it's doing my best in everything no matter what...

2.What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
Being a part of God's family and knowing that I have family and friends loving me no matter what.

3.What do you wish to have right now?
Camp, an ipod, more books and an airplane ticket to visit everyone I miss right now!!

4.When is the last time you last horselaughed?
When I was at HAC camp.

5.What did you realize recently?
I can't read music notes and am having short term memory. =p
And that you are always there for me no matter what. =D

6.Which bad habit in you that is the most unacceptable?
Not remembering people's names? That was really embarrassing when I asked Xun Kin what his name was on the last day of camp. *blushes in embarrassment* Anyway, I have lots of bad habits but I'm not telling you. *smiles impishly*

7.When you are unhappy, what will you do?
READ!! Consume ice-cream and chocolate and comfide in someone.

8. What are you afraid of losing?
Losing my trust towards God and especially losing my friends and family which mean a lot to me.

9. Within 5 years, which target is the most realism one?
Be an English completer? I'll achieve that next year. Hmm... I'll be more daring and confident than ever.

10.When you met someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feeling?
Tell the person directly I have feelings towards him!! I wish. *sighs* I'll just secretly admire that person and flirt with him a little? Get to know that person more and build a relationship? Bah, I'm not bothered by it now.

11.List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
I-am-the-only-one-that-matters people, self-centered and hey-I-don't-give-a-damn-about-you-eventhough-you're-involved type of people.

12.Define loneliness.
You wake up one day and realized that you're all alone in this big, crowded world and can't even name a single friend. You feel depressed and down.

13. Are you satisfied with your life now? Do you think any changes should be made?
Not really but I'll let God decide everything as I have faith in Him.

14.When is the most recent time you feel touched?
When little David gave me a peck on the cheek. *feels nostalgic*

15.Where is the most beautiful place that you've visited?
The place in my dreams?

16. A song that is playing in your mind recently.
Clementine and Mirror.

17. If you have a wish to come true, what is it?
Travel all around the world? Or even better, wipe of poverty, famine and child abuse.

18. Do you have anything to be worried or scared recently?
Yes, in fact, TONS but I know I'll go through it all.

19.If the world is going to end, what will you do?
Travel all around the world and tell all my loved ones I love them.

20. What question to ask myself? Hmm.. Who do I have faith in the most?
Simple. God.

8 people to do this tag.
1. The person reading this.
2. Santa Clause. =p
3. Santa's helpers.
4. Elves.
5. My books.
6. My imaginary friend.
7. Homo sapiens. Xun Kin?
8. Anyone who hasn't done this tag cause I'm being hyper. *giggles hysterically*

HAC 2007.

High Achiever's Camp.
FUN, FUN and more FUN.
Three simple words that can knock you out of breath.
Three days, two nights.
Pure adrenaline, enjoyment and nostalgia.

As most of you had already read Christie's blog, you already know the gist of the camp.
It was on 12th December till 14th December in Kundang, Rawang. Students from Klang Valley were to gather at Museum Negara at 8.30am before departing at 9.30am. Mum woke me after 7.00am. I wanted to get back to bed since I slept around 1am the night before. She thought we were to gather at 8.00am but she heard wrongly. I guessed I asked her to wake me up at 8.00am instead. We arrived around 8.10am. There were a number of people there. I couldn't see Christie anyway and just waited with mum. I was in bus 5. Looking around, I couldn't find any familiar familiar faces. It was just a whirl of faces all around me. But guess what, I wasn't afraid or nervous, I felt a surge of excitement in my heart. All these new faces meant new friends.

The bus arrived, boarded it and sat somewhere in the middle. A girl [whom I know later was Joe Yee from SBU and goes to the same centre as me ] asked if she could sit with me. I had to tell her that I had a friend sitting there already. [ that friend which you can guess as much is Chris ] She just shrugged her shoulders, said "Ok" and went to sit in front. I felt a little bad but I quickly shook it off. We could make friends later. Chris finally arrived and all the way long, we chatted non-stop. We were the only ones talking. We arrived at MBS, Kundang and registered and had tea. Guess what?? They feed us SIX times a day. Breakfast, tea, lunch, tea, dinner and supper. No need to worry about being hungry. After eating, we were all chaperoned to Conference Room C and jam-packed like sardines in there. There were about 278 people in that room which wasn't that large. The facilitator, Evan and Timothy whom insisted we called Abang gave us a short briefing about D' Jungle People and taught us the Jungle Juniors Rock. We checked into our individual dorms, some were chalets. I was in dorm 118 and there were 27 of us in the dorm. Then we each went into our own company. There were three. Alpha Company, Bravo Company and Charlie Company. I was in the Bravo Company and Christie was in the Alpha Company. I only knew one person who was in the same company as me who was Nicole. Then us, the Sergeants had to create our own company flag. Nicole got the idea of an eagle from the shirt of another girl and sketched it out. It was amazing how agile she was at drawing the picture after a brief look. All of us contributed ideas and agreed on the eagle. The boys painted the eagle which later turned out to be a phoenix since it was all red, orange and yellow while the girls painted the background and words. All of us worked together as one. Another group of us had to cut put strips of red so that we know who were in our team and painted Japanese words on the strip. On it were written Good luck everyone in Japanese. Halfway through it all, we had lunch.

After eating, we finished our flags, learned our war cry and went on to activities. We played four games. I was in Group 1 with Christopher, Hooi Gee, Xun Kin and several others whom I can't remember their names. The first game was 'Landmine Ball'. It was such a tiring game. We had to wear gloves, link arms with a partner and hit the ball to your opponent's goal. It wasn't easy at all. Next we had the hula hoop and a heavy plank of wood game. This game involves strategizing, teamwork and coordination. We did not win that game and we all felt down. After these two games, it was time for outdoor games. This game involved five people carrying a cup filled with water and a ping pong ball using only a finger. We were screaming and laughing while playing this game. We got first. Yay. We were definitely ecstatic and head to the water balloon game. The boys were being cheeky, making fun of one another while we filled the balloons with water. Before we even went to 'battle', they were already wet due to their cheekiness and clumsiness. Hooi Gee was one of the wettest ones. Then we went out to battle. I was the 'defender'. I managed to help the team to win thanks to their help when I grabbed the flag from the middle and brought it back safely to my side. A guy was like totally lost and asked whether we won. I laughed and told him yes. We each went to our respective dorms, had a shower and then dinner. At night, Timothy gave the sergeants a speech, telling us about his past, advising us and cracking jokes of course. Nicole's phone rang all of a sudden and everyone looked at her. Timothy was saying, "Answer that, must be Mummy calling." I was right beside her. Timothy taught us something we often amiss in our lives. 'Think before doing anything' and gave us three questions that had something to do with our personal reflections. We had supper and went to bed. Susanna and another girl was talking and laughing loudly till someone came in and they became quiet.

On the second day, we had morning exercise and a very looooooooong headcount. After breakfast, we went to Conference Room C where we had Kumon Workshop and Timothy and Evan were as usual up to their antics. We had group discussions and this guy who was a Maths Completer gave really good tips to my group. Then we had lunch but before that we went back to the conference room and were told to present 3 presentations from each company and rank. During lunch, we discussed about it. Somehow me and Zhen Yie became in charge of the drama thing for sergeants. It was so hard to get all the sergeants to cooperate and I was seriously loosing patience. Xun Kin told me I was so fierce that the guys were afraid that I will scold them. I'm not surprised *sticks tongue out*

Our first game on that day was Monster Garden [ considering you've read Christie's blog, you'll know what is it about ] I managed to get a card for my team. It wasn't easy. Later Christopher and Xun Kin were saying how they appreciate their sight. Next we had a water game which was fun. Hooi Gee got so wet but she didn't mind that since our group won. Then we had another blind-fold game which we lost but it didn't matter. Next on the list was water sports. *smiles with glee* We changed and lined up in front of the pool. We had a life saving game first for me and the half the girls in my team then water polo before rafting. We learnt how to quail a rope and save people from drowning with it. It is useful for life saving. Water rafting wasn't easy. Recreation time was fun. There I got to know Edward and Jae Han and I got a little mad at him. I splashed water right at him. He stills hold a grudge against me. Haha.. I'll skip the other details since they will bore you. [ if you already aren't bored ]

At night, we had to present our presentation and what do you know... The girls from my team refuse to co-operate and we lost two scenes. It was entirely up to the guys. Thank goodness there were Wei Wen, Christopher and Xun Kin. Thirty minutes before our presentation, the guys got everything done. Xun Kin was panicking like mad and I thought I was the one who was suppose to be panicking. He is one unusual guy. All the presentations were hilarious, entertaining and humouring. At least mine went well even thought there were a few mistakes. I felt like hugging everyone who helped in the drama especially Zhen Yie, Christopher, Wei Wen and Xun Kin. I loved the part where Christopher and his team did the "Swimming, swimming, swimming," thing just like Finding Nemo. Credits to Christopher and Wei Wen. I don't know how to thank you guys. Campfire was a blast. We held each other's shoulders and made a long, long train while going round in circles around the camp fire singing D' Jungle Junior song. Lights out was at 11.00pm, 30 minutes later. None of us could persuade Timothy to prolong the time.

The last day. *sighs heavy-heartedly* I didn't feel like leaving. I felt like I belonged there. I had became attached to the people there and made tons of friends. We discussed in our own group what we had learn throughout the camp after meeting in Conference Room C. Everyone in Bravo agreed that we all learned how to say, " I tell you ah..." and "You fellas" from Timothy. Han and another guy made up a new one, " You tell me ah.." and everyone burst into gales of laughter. Then we get to choose the best camper from each rank. I was voted as one but Nicole outwon me by a few numbers. I wasn't sad or disappointed. In fact, I felt happy for her. I was already very exhilarated when many of the sergeants and majors voted for me. Timothy told us that even if we did not win, it wasn't important. The most important thing was that we had fun participating, enjoyed ourselves thoroughly and gain lots of experience and friends. That was what that counted. Alpha won and screamed and shouted in sheer delight. We had a photo session after that. I took picture with the guys and we then departed back to the museum.

On the way back, Willey, Christie and I talked non-stop. We were the only ones talking and Willey said that out loud. He claimed that no one wanted to talk cause they were from different companies. But I pointed out that the three of us were from different companies as well. Christie was from Alpha, I was from Bravo and Willey was from Charlie. ABC. We just laughed. The journey wasn't long. It was considerably short.

What I learned during these three days are life-long experiences.
What I had went through during these three days are one of the most memorable days of my life.
What I gained during these three days will forever be in me.
To all the friends whom I had became attached with, till next year, we'll meet again. So long.
The pictures below are credits to Xun Kin. It's all from his camera. Thanks a million. =]

A guy whom I forgot what his name was, Christopher, Evan and Xun Kin.

Xun Kin and Christopher's friends who were in the same centre as them.

Zhen Yie, Jing Yuan, Christopher, Xun Kin and me with the other three.

All the Bravo's.

Christopher's and Xun Kin's friends from their centres.

You guys will forever be etched in my heart. See ya all next year. Till time bring us together again. ^^

Have a look or a glimpse.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIDRtEOLWiU

I found it on the net by accident.

Genting.

Pictures from my trip to Genting. The last post were all words and now they are all picture all taken by me.

Heavy hearted.

Today was the last day of Vbs. I'm going to really miss all the kids. I've got myself attached to them especially David and Derren. It was really a great experience testing my patience, energy, self-motivation, love, judgement and being unbiased. It wasn't easy just as Li Quin had predicted. Working along with her, Ivan and Crystal was something totally unexpected. I was the assistant coach but Ivan introduced me as Coach Kelly so all the kids called me that. It was weird at first but I got used to it. Ivan did something unexpected today. I was shocked at first but he kept me encouraged.

Let's start with yesterday. It was so tiring, more tiring than the day before and i woke up later than the usual. The kids were more lovable then ever. All the kids adore Ivan. He sat on the stage yesterday and lied there. All the kids jumped on him,swarmed all over him and hung on to him tightly. Crystal and I were just laughing heartedly as the whole thing occurred in front of us. Pastor Wilson had to order them to get off from Ivan but this little girl [ whom's name I can't remember ] continue to lie on him.

The hardest part was actually making the kids to listen. I pitied Li Quin. She was telling a story but none of the kids listen, only one or two i guess. It was just so hard to make them pay attention and listen. But that isn't that all, one of the toughest is taking care of the Down Syndrome kids and there were three of them in my class. Brian Lee was fine since he was the more responsive one and listened but the other girl and Kok Siong were the harder ones. I was asked to shadow Kok Siong and I can't even count how many times he managed to weasel away from me when I turned around. He's a kid that loves dancing, singing, jumping from high places and not to forget, banging stuff too. The other girl [ Cheong something... I'm not good with names. ] pulls other people's hair, pry open people's bag, take anything that's pink, steal stuff and has a really strong grip, determined not to let go. Leandra is always mad at her for taking her stuff and not giving it back so I had to intervene every single time.

I was the girl giving out ketchup yesterday. We had chicken burgers. At the beginning, no one wanted ketchup but after a bite, screams were heard asking for ketchup. I was the only one holding a bottle of ketchup so I had to rushed here and there fulfilling all the kids demands. I didn't mind a bit though. They all asked politely and we ate with the blue team. [ I'm the green team. ] After lunch the kids time to snooze but the boys ended up running around, shouting and screaming. It took a long time for them to calmed down.

David Teo and Deren Lee were real attention grabbers. When Deren sat on my lap, David would get jealous and I had to persuade and cooed him. Mind you, he's just a seven-year-old kid. He won't let go of my hands and was determined to hold on to it. Once in a while I had slowly pull my hands out of his grip as I had to take care of Kok Siong and the other Down Syndrome girl. Ivan was trying so hard to control the whole class even with the help from the three of us. When I was paying attention to someone else other than him, David gets really upset. Whereas Derren would be up to mischief if I didn't paid attention to him. It was so hard to juggle between David, Derren, Kok Siong, Cheong and the other kids eventhough there was the other 3 helping. But it all paid off.

Derren was a goofy boy when he comes to me and demands attention. But I love David the most and I know I'm being biased here eventhough I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it. He gave me a kiss on the cheek yesterday when the it was time to go back. How sweet is that?? It's unexpected from a seven-year-old hyperactive kid. The pastor thought I was his brother when I managed to quieten him and got him to sit with me. He refused to listen to everyone else. The pastor was so surprised when he heard that. David made me accompany him downstairs with his sister [who looks very similiar to him that you would know they were sibling right away ] and would not let go. It took a long time persuading him but he did finally let go. I hung out with the other assistant and coaches for a while. I met Daniel. A form 4 guy. He was a funny, goofy, startling, humourable guy. We had fun talking and kept bursting into gales of laughter as we talked. He was stating how short he was and all that while being bugged by his sister who was meddling with his cap.

Ivan carried Eugene and Eugene wanted revenge so he asked Bryan for help. One of them carried the hands while the other carried the legs. Ivan was terrified and all he could stutter was he didn't like anyone to carry him when he was being carried. All of us just laughed and laughed. Then they made jokes saying that Bryan could carry Ivan all by himself eventhough he was younger. While Eugene and I were walking back to his house [ it was just a few kilometres ] we were busy debating and rebutting.

I met a standard 5 girl whom I saw a few times before and we instantly clicked. She stayed back so we talked and arm-wrestled. I had a really enjoyable day yesterday till dinnertime. I won't state anything about it as that will break my bubble.

Today wasn't that bad. I have to thank Ivan for helping and encouraging me to do something I didn't had the guts to do. After what happened to Li Quin I didn't want to do it. Ivan was good at scheming stuff. Li Quin was looking for one of our lost lambs, kid's i mean and Ivan suddenly told the kids he was telling them a story. After asking the kids to choose which story he wanted he told the kids, "Ok everyone, gather here. Coach Kelly is going to tell you a story."
Me. " Wha--? Me? "
All Ivan did was grinned triumphantly and said, " I have to take something. Help me tell them the story." Then to the kids, " Kids, gather around Coach Kelly and listen to her. " and he fled.
After what happened to Li Quin, I just stood there gaping while David tugged on my shirt, pulling me back into consciousness. I took a deep breath and told myself, "Here goes nothing," before plopping myself onto a chair. My voice came out amazing different than what I felt inside and guess what... ALL the kids were paying ATTENTION!! ALL!! I was so shocked. It was unbelievable. Even when Ivan was telling a story, a large number of them weren't paying attention and Ivan was a great storyteller. Compare me to him, I'm just an amateur. I just continued, stumbling on my words twice or thrice. Ivan and Li Quin appeared out of no where when I started the story. Ivan was practically beaming. David stood in front of me as I told the story, wanting the attention all to himself. When the story ended, one of the kid shouted " So short one, I want some more." The other kids agreed and look longly at me. In my heart I was telling myself NO WAY eventhough the other part said, sure, no problem. Thankfully Ivan was smart enough not to push my limits and told the kids they could get those sticker tattoos. I caught him grinning at me, somehow congratulating me while the kids rushed to him. Li Quin just beamed at me. Who thought the kids will actually pay attention to me? The feeling of it feels so great and makes me all bubbly inside.

My love and patience was pushed to it's limits today. And I really mean pushed to the limits. Kok Siong somehow disappeared himself while the kids were having snacks and reappeared himself when we were ready to get to the next station. He made some hand signs stating he was hungry so I told Ivan since he was the "big guy". Ivan told me to bring him to the place where we ate. As I went and settled him down, David rushed in to pull my hands and told me that they were going up. I told him go up without me and the look on his face was so sad that I felt like abandoning Kok Siong and follow him. My consciousness came first, thankfully. Kok Siong was a special needs child and wasn't capable of taking care of himself so I stood firm and promised David I would come up later. David slowly let go of my hand and trudged slowly to the door, turning back to look at me. I knew I did the right thing but somehow I wished I could go with him since today was the last day I could see him. In the morning when I told him today was the last day we could see each other, he said that we could see each other next year and sat put beside me, refusing to sit with the other kids.

Helping Kok Siong to eat wasn't easy. He kept playing with the water machine and couldn't decide if he wanted popcorn or biscuits and ended up taking both. I was being as patient as I could, hoping he would be quick so that David wouldn't be that sad. But Kok Siong took really long. By the time he finished his popcorn, Bryan's class came in. Bryan was sort of surprised to see me. Kok Siong wanted to eat ice-cream and he still hadn't finished his biscuits. I insisted him to finish his biscuit before giving him the ice-cream. [ He thought it was ice-cream but it was actually strawberry yogurt ] While eating his second biscuit, he said that he didn't want it anymore and wanted ice-cream and water. I gave him water and asked him whether he wanted the biscuit again but he just keep saying he wanted ice-cream. Afraid that he would start screaming, I gave the yogurt to him. Bryan caught my eye and just smiled at me as he understood the whole situation. A little encouragement for me to go on being kind to him, I guess. My patience was already over the limits and I could have burst anytime. Bryan just kept on smiling before taking care of his class of kids. He offered to help a bit but I could handle it. Finally, Kok Siong finish everything and I convinced him to go up the stairs. Well, he crawled instead of walk but at least he did go up.

David didn't pay attention to me at first but that didn't last long. He came and tugged my arm, asking me to sit with him and to play the games with him. He's definitely going to be someone really special and the girls will surely go ga-ga over him. He's such a charming boy. I absolutely love him.

I had to leave before everything ended and didn't say goodbye to anybody except Ivan and Li Quin. Ivan was liked he got snapped from a dream when I told him bye. I couldn't blame him. Being in charge of the kids wasn't a light job. It is the most tedious thing ever. He was grateful for my help and I know he really meant it. Li Quin was startled but caught herself on time and replied. Luckily Eugene was distracting David and Deren was busy up to some mischief. I didn't think I could bare saying bye to David. But I did gave him a goodbye message on his key-chain that he wanted from me. He twisted and turned his words, somehow asking me to write something on his key-chain.

I felt heavy-hearted, leaving early, not saying bye to all the little kids and my new-found friends whom were Timothy, Daniel, Bryan, Ruth, Carmen, Phoebe, Sophie and many more. But mum will never accept any excuse and I knew it. I will be back next year. The thought of it comforts me a little. I'm am going to miss all of them. They left footprints all over my heart.

I know this is really long but once I start typing, I won't stop. Besides I did promise to post an extra-long post after that short one.

P.S. If you actually read the whole thing, I'll congratulate and thank you for spending your time reading it. If you did not, well... it was expected.

Till little kids, smiling angels [the kids] and love. [ in it's purest form]

Vbs.

Two long blogs in a day. That I'll guarante you. Holidays are the time to make me grow fat and lazy. Make that very lazy. The gears in my brain aren't functioning that well. It slowed down a lot. I'm staying over at Eugene's house till Saturday and I'm having so fun channel-surfing, flipping the channels every time my hands feel like twithching that I'm getting a little bored of it. Is it even possible? ( laughs uncertainly)

The reason I stayed was to help out at the Vacation Bible School(Vbs) in Cheras Baptist Church. I'm volunteered to take care of the little kids. The reason I wanted to do it because the idea of it just enlightens me and well, at least I can spend my time with something actually benefitting. Today was the first day. I'm taking care of the 5 to 7 year olds. With Ivan, Crystal and Li Quin. 20 kids. 3 of which are Down Syndrome kids. The only word that I can use to describe the whole thing is TIRING. The whole day was tiring, taking care of the kids. But it was a very great experience. I met lots of little kids but the most adorable ones were Deren and David. Those two are the cutest, most annoying rascals you ever met. They really show me how I used to be when I was a little kid. Energetic, hyperactive and supercurious.

These two kids are sweeter than any guy I ever met. Escpecially David. He kept holding my hands and refused to let go and he kept asking me to carry him and letting him sit on me. While Deren talks non-stop and enjoys it when I tickle him. I just love them to bits though they drive me nuts.

I've made lots of new friends as well. Bryan, Timothy, Crystal, Ivan, Phoebe, Sophie,Ruth,David, Willson, Carmen and a few more whom I can't remember their names.

I'll post more tomorrow. Hitting the sacks now. It's short, I know.

Till little boys running around squabbling.

Ages.

It's been ages since I last blogged. Time flies really fast. To think of it there's still so much I still haven't had the time or will to do....

I'll start with last Friday. I went up to Genting Highlands with two of my aunts and my cousin, sister and mum. We watched went up just to watch the Kitaro concert. I can still remember it as though it was yesterday. The adrenaline rushing, the amazement, the feeling of it. It's just so... indescribable. One minute you're feeling this and the next you're feeling something entirely new. Just watching the concert was made me satisfied. Added with the hot potatoes and a large cup of hot chocolate as well. The weather there was just what I wish it would be. Usually it's just a little colder than it is in KL. Thankfully, it wasn't. It was freezing (due to the heavy rain), windy and really misty.

I did got to chance to rock climb as well. It was kinda scary at first. Getting all jittery and all but when you're up, it feels good. We stayed at Awana Genting whatever name it is. My memory ain't working that good. A super deluxe room for six people. Wow. (a little sarcasm) Someone had to sleep on the floor but me and both my aunts slept very well that night. The next morning, we got news that my grandfather got admitted to the hospital. He vomited eight times the night before. He was given the wrong medicine by the doctor. We wanted to go back immediately but we already purchased the tickets to the outdoor theme park and it wasn't refundable. All I got to sit was the Crockscrew. We waited really long for that ride.

By the time we got home, the drive and everything, it was already 4-ish. We went right away to the hospital. And by the time we got home, it was almost six. ( Grandfather was discharged from the hospital a few days ago. Thank God for that. )

I have lots of pictures in my (lousy, sorry but no offense,cam) camera. Since I'm at my cousin's house now, I can't exactly fly home now to upload the pictures. So till I go home then which won't be very soon.

On Sunday, I had to skip church to go for a dentist appointment. The dentist said I had to extract four teeth. FOUR. That's going to be a lot of pain. ( I knew you did that on purpose and I'm not talking the dentist. ) At night, I saw Jude at Coffee Bean while having coffee with Vicki and her family. Haha... His friend was the one who saw me first and said hi to me. I didn't really recognise him but I realised that Jude look very familiar from the back so I just called out to him. It was really him after all. He thought Vicki and I were on our own since both of us sat separately from our family. It was nice meeting him after a long time. He hasn't change much. Not that I can see and my depth of sight isn't that sharp.

Fast forward to Monday, had tuiton in the morning and then I went with Vicki to her music centre in the afternoon. It was awesome as she had band practise. I'm kinda lazy to write all about it. Well, lazy me. But I did had lots of fun teasing, making fun, wondering,seeing, hearing, debating and eating on that day. Strange me.

Anyway, I got my hair cut yesterday and what you will call straightened but what I will call a torturous and heartbreaking event thanks to that unprofessional and self-centered hairdresser. This is the last time I'm ever going back. I hate it so freaking much. She just cuts whatever style she likes like it's her own hair. And she just won't listen to me. Talk about stubborn. And to think I was the queen or stubbornness, I found a worthy competitor. Boy, what fun. I just can't wait for my hair to grow. It better be fast!

I just found out yesterday that I have some sort of allergy and I don't know what you call that but it makes my skin dry and spotty. (there's spots over my arms) It's nothing serious so I have nothing to worry about. Just apply two cremes twice a day. Simple as that but its really sticky and uncomfortable at the beginning.

I'm tired of my brother's smart-arsed remarks and smirks. One day, I'm going to explode. All I do now is be quiet and keep all my anger in me. I'll see how long it will last. I'm telling you, it won't last that long. My patience is running dry!

I'm going to blog about today in the next post.

Till the very end of my blogging and typing's.

Cave and hot spring.

I can't believe I actually woke up late yesterday. I was suppose to wake at 6am or 6.30am the latest and ended up waking up at 7.00am. I got too stubborn and refused to sleep early the day earlier. Panicked like anything on that day and was rushing around the house like a madman. Finally caught my breath in the car and started to get a little nervous. I was all on my own starting then. Reached the centre and gathered at the hall. Everywhere were little kids sprawled around. A teacher came up to me and asked my name after I stood standing in the middle of the hallway for who knows how many minutes. I sat there watching the television while having a glimpse at the kids. Got my shirt, changed and departed on the bus.

The journey to Gua Tempurung took around 3 hours. Watched movies in the bus, read my book[I had to bring one] and slept for a little while and enjoyed the scenery as got closer to the caves. I loved the scenery that I saw. The lush greenery… The trees growing at different heights… It was all ME. Blue skies, green trees. That’s the way it should be. Not the overpopulated city, congested roads, black fumes rising into the air, the increase of pollution… It’s going overboard. Anyway, back to the topic.

We finally reached after the caves. It was magnificent. While I stood near the caves while the tour guide was buying tickets for us, I saw the most amazing thing. The sun was shining overhead some trees, casting it’s rays on a tree. It was like magic. I wish I had brought a camera. The way the tree parted into two as part of it was ‘shining’ and the other part reflected it’s inner beauty. If I actually brought a camera, I could have see it over and over again but it’s still fresh in my memory and forever will be. After getting the so-called-ticket which was actually a sticker, we went into the caves. All the way we hiked up the stairs. There were two ways. One lasts an hour or so by using the staircase. The other lasts four hours or but you have to wade through the water. I wish we could wade through the water even if it takes that long but there were little kids and they weren’t allowed to. The caves were filled with stalactite, stalagmites, limestone and marble stone. The limestone were in shape the shapes of a pair of eyes, a horse, a jellyfish, seahorse, a pair of hands, a pair of legs, an elephant, a cat, a cow and many others. They were all natural. It amazed me. Without your imagination, you couldn’t see them. On the way up, this little kid Ahmat was so scared that he kept grabbing my hand cause the other guy Cheurn Sun or something kept scaring and taunting him. Everytime I was about to let go of his hand, he’ll pull my hand and not let go.I After going up and down and up and down the stairs. we went out of the cave.

A picture of the caves. Got it from the net.

There was something missing from the caves. Without it, the cave felt empty, sort of hollow. There were no wildlife in the cave because they can’t adapt to the light. People are allowed to bring their camera’s into the caves and obviously they had to use flash and the tour guide brought his own torchlight in the cave. The animas can’t live in the caves anymore since they need the dark and can’t adapt to the light. I wish there were wild life I wish the cave wasn’t vandalized. I wish people knew how to appreciate it more. I wish…

We had lunch somewhere in Ipoh. Ahmat sat next to me. Cheeky little kid. Kept making faces at me but for an eight-year-old he can definitely eat a lot. Mind you, he’s very small sized. He just kept stuffing everything into his mouth and ate non-stop. Trust me, you won’t want to see him eat. He gobbles everything in put in front of him.

After lunch, we went to Sg. Klah hot spring. The journey from the restaurant to the hot spring took about an hour and a half. Just as we arrived at the hot spring’s, Ahmat vomited, pity him. That little kid was already down with the flu and guess he got car-sick or bus-sick and vomited due to his consumption of the amount of food he ate. Then we went to the hot springs. We went to the egg boiling thing first. Put the egg in the water for several minutes and ta-da, out comes a boiled egg. I didn’t bring any clothes to change so I just soaked my legs. The little kids changed into their swimsuits while a few just jumped in with their clothes. Water splashed everywhere as the kids jumped in and splashed water at one another. After 15 minutes or so, a few of the kids were flushing red. The kids changed into their clothes and then we went back. A kid forget to bring his pants and he had no pants to wear, just a shirt and his undergarments. He was so embarrassed. I guess a kid lent him his pants after that since he was wearing one when we went back to the centre. The journey back took 3 hours. Slept in the bus and finished the book.

A picture of the egg-boiling in the hot springs. Got it from the net too.

Since I followed my aunt back, I waited till 7 something and then we went to Pavilion to eat. By the time I went back home, it was already 10.30. Watched television for a while, took my bath and continued watching. It was some ninja show. Slept at 12. It was exciting going to new places, gaining experience, being on my own, figuring out life and stuff…

I won't mind going back again.