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Everything good has to come to an end.
This is a fact that's hard to accept but you still have to.
This past week has been good.
I couldn't ask for anything better.
Sure, there were days when I felt like strangling that certain person who completely ruins my day for me.
But the times I had, the memories shaped and formed, the bittersweet experiences I endured on, I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.
For these are the stepping stones in my life.
Where the learning curve is steep, it's nearly a perfect straight line heading upwards.
It was a week of self-rediscovery.
Of just stopping to reflect upon myself.
The person I've become, the person I used to be, the person I'm becoming and the person I'm moulding myself into.
Of who I am, who I could be and the potential I had in myself, long buried deep inside.
It was a scary experience, knowing what I would uncover.
There were reasons why they were shoved down in the first place.
But I did not give myself the opportunity to stop and question my actions.
I just did. Without a thought.
No consequences, no questions.
The outcome really surprised me.
Honestly, I was shaken to the core.
For I know, once classes resume, I would be so consumed by everything else around me that I will forget.
Forget the little things in life that shaped me into who I am today.
But here are the few reminders for myself.
Paper cranes, unruly hair, photos, pebbles, ponds, scorching sun and sweat.
They're here as reminders for myself.
That I should never stop smiling even though the whole world is frowning.
That I can be whoever I choose to be for I do not need permission nor allowance from anyone at all.
And I don't want this to ever end, the wild passion burning within me to discover more about myself.
As I push myself even further beyond my wildest imagination and expectations.
I don't want to ever stop here and be a constant.
Neither do I want to be stuck in the past, consumed wholly by fears and disappointments.
Life is never is easy, don't expect it to be any easier in the future but expect the opposite.
It'll get even harder.
But that's life.
And how you choose to perceive it determines the course of your life.
It's up to you after all.
I have no idea where the above came from. It just came out.
Or it might just be my brain screaming at me to get my ass to bed.
Who knows?
I'm heading there now anyway.
Till then.
Enjoy your Chinese New Year/ holidays till it ends.
Toodles.
P.S. I just want to say thanks for being there for me, listening to me pour my heart out. Simply for just being there for me, no matter what. From the bottom of my heart, I'm thanking you. You know who you are. Sometimes I think I don't deserve you. But you'll always stop me from allowing myself to think that.
P.P.S The beauty of rekindled friendships. I'll never get over it's beauty for it still touches my heart to experience it firsthand over and over again, repeatedly.
P.P.P.S. Moose, big-fish-small-fish, In Between and the Mahjong Lookalike, definitely forms an upwards curve on my lips when I recall the times we all spent together.
