Just in the mood.

Click to enlarge. Go on...

Since I'm very well stuck at home, I was suppose to go out but ended up at home, might as well I do something. Say, sleep? Wait, I just got out of bed not long ago. Movies it'll be then. Maybe later. Talking to someone would be great. I'm babbling now. I really am.

Yesterday was great.
A day with the one and only Vick-Kay.
Sorry I wasn't much of a help to you.
You know I'm not a good player.
We should have a sleepover. We haven't had that for ages.
We still owe Chris Haagen-Dazs ice-cream, you reminded me. So Chris, when will you be up for it? We're waiting for you.
By the way, Vick, an hour and a half of comics is great. Especially Zits comics. I could have more.
And Yu Kit, thanks for the help. We thought you knew how to play that. At least remember. You know what, you ended up with what Vick and I played. Hilarious. She wanted me to play that song but I forgot. So I needed you to give me the chords. Sorry if we bothered you. It wasn't intentional. At least I think it wasn't. *innocent face*

Twilight wasn't at all great. It could have been better. Much more better. It's unbelievable that they censored the swearing part and the kissing scenes. They already rated it PG-13, what else do they want? Reading the book is a much more sensible choice. Don't expect anything from the movie.

This year was my first time to HUGE.
I had fun. I wished Vick and Gwen went. It would have been fun with those two around.
I met some new friends. A group of girls from another church.
I didn't know they were from Johor till I started texting one of them. Seriously, I thought they were from PJ. At least I know now. They were very friendly and we played beach volleyball together. Worth all the bruises on my hands. With lessons from them, I had a blast playing with them. Apparently a few of them had been in volleyball competitions before.
The worship was sensational. I enjoyed every second of the worship.
I did learn new things. Aaron must be thinking I didn't cause when he asked I just looked at him.
Can't help it. Ryan was looking at me like I hadn't learn a single thing too. Looking back, I'm laughing so hard now. Can't blame me, I was dead tired then. The bus on the way back was darn uncomfortable and made all the weird, funny sounds. Ivan knows I did learn something. That count's. The preachers were passionate about sharing what they wanted to preach. I can't get enough of Pastor Clement's antics.

Everyone blow your trumpet.

(Stolen from Pau. Hope you don't mind. XD)

I just had a talk with Marcus a while ago. While I was having lunch, he's having supper.
I bet he's smarter than me now. I recall a few years ago, whenever he needed answers, he'll look at me. And we'll both gang up against another guy. I just admitted that out loud didn't I? Crap.
Oh well, we didn't bully that guy, we just asked him to help us. Nicely. Yeah. *chuckles*
Those were the times.
If I ever go to America, I'll stalk him. *wide grin*
I don't think that's necessary though, he just said I could hang out with him. So we both agreed, Marcus will be my tour guide when I'm in Flushing. *laughs out loud*
I imagine his sister to be very pretty. I simply can't imagine. She was one of the cutest kid I've ever met. She always hid behind her mum whenever they came.
So a deal is a deal, don't forget. You'll survive high school. You're one of the toughest kid I've known. Just don't wind up messing around with you-know-who. I'm sure you won't. Till we meet again someday. The deal's on.

Till songs, day-dreaming, wanting, hoping, talking, wishing and simply laughing till your tummy ache.

Toodles.

P.S. I won't have any thing sticking to my ear's for the next one or two weeks. No Ipod. Still surviving. Or trying to.

P.P.S. Speaking to people reminds me that I haven't had a conversation with him for a very long time.

P.P.P.S. I find that to be very therapeutic.

Backdated.

I'm still alive. At least I think I am. I'm such a muddle these days.
In other words, CRANKY.
Don't ask why. I wish I knew. I'm a roller-coaster of emotions.

I'm doing nothing much these days.
Nothing worth telling or mentioning.
I love the holidays.
I do, I just wish I did something more meaningful or something. Anything.
I have no idea what I'm blabbing but I'm feeling down right now so I'm not bothered.

I know I'm way way behind on my tags. Don't blame me.
I rarely go online cause I don't feel like going online and I'm not in the mood for tags at the moment.
Maybe when I get a crazy urge to do tags I'll do them. You just have to wait. *laughs out loud*
Continue putting my name in the 'People to tag'. Don't stop on my account. *smiles widely*
On some days, I feel the urge to delete this blog. I really do. I don't even know why.
Since I'm already posting, I might as well leave it as it is.

I saw your face on the bookmarks/calender. Totally unexpected. Caught me slightly off-guard.
And read your testimony on it. I can't believe I know you!! *inserts maniac laugh*
And we worked as a team before too, me under your 'leadership'. Pfft... I just can't stop laughing. You did a good job, considering that it was your first time. And you were rewarded BIG TIME. Lucky guy. I recall the time when you text me to tell me you were already there since you thought I was afraid to be alone. You ended eating breakfast there while I didn't even have mine. The irony? You should have called me to go later.
Well, now you get to be famous. You and that grinny smile. I wish you well in your life since I won't be seeing you till, say next year? Who knows.

I'll end my post here. I have absolutely lots to say. But this update is just to let everyone know that I'm alive and reading. Maybe I'll update soon. Just maybe.

I'm off to get ready for my lunch date with Vicki tomorrow.
Wait.... it's tomorrow.
Well, off to the books it'll be then.

Till more dates, reading, ignoring and crazy moods.

Shake.

Give a girl a box of strawberries, yogurt and blender and what do you get?

A cup of strawberry milkshake.

At least that’s how it was with me.

I was never the person who will be caught in the kitchen unless it’s to steal a bite or two. Guilty charged.

So it’s definitely a surprise to find myself making milkshakes.

It’s usually my mum or sister who makes them for my family.

What made me wander into the kitchen in the first place?

Good question.

I couldn’t watch my drama series for some reason so I was stuck with old cd’s.

I have absolutely nothing against them. I just got bored of them.

Anyway, the only thing that will please me was continue watching my drama series.

So off I wandered to the kitchen to play with dry ice that mum had dumped into the sink.

Then my mum put a box of strawberries beside me.

The rest is history.

Drama betul. Right?

I just chopped the strawberries, washed them and plunked everything into the blender with the yogurt.

It was all trial and error. At first it wasn’t thick enough so I added more strawberries.

I used up ALL the strawberries. And make milkshake for the whole family.

Since I just dumped everything in and let the blender do its job, I was sure it wouldn’t turn out that well. And I added some other stuff inside. Just to try and see how it taste like.

Tummy ache or not, it was fun.

But it turned out awesome. I loved the taste.

So did my mum and sister.

I’m going to make them again.

Someday.

Two worlds,

Two regions,

Two personalities,

Two separate lives,

We wounded up being together again.

Even if we hadn't got first place, we wounded up getting second.

Two for two.

The memories we shared.

They can't be erased.

Only added.

All good things come to and end.

There's no denying then,

I'm going to miss you lots.

Till the time comes.

Simplicity.

Simplicity at it's best.

Sometimes, simple is all it takes.

Thanks for helping me rediscover what really matters to me.

It all just flowed back into me. And you know what, I simply love that feeling.

All my favorites just reappear in my head.

I always try to strive for the impossible but really matters isn't going for the complexity or the perfectionism, it's savoring every single one.
That's when you learn to appreciate life.
Old times are hard to let go but they'll always be there in the musty corners of your head.
It's time to continue adding chapters to the present.

Question mark ?

I’ve decided to update. Whoopee- Doo.

I’m hyper at the moment. So please don’t mind me. Apparently I’m high on sugar.

I've been bugged by many peeps bugging me to update.

Usually I go online to be caught up in other people's blogs and read till I go asleep. Smart, nay?

Can you believe it? Last Friday was just the LAST day of school.

A week has just gone and past. Time sure whizzes by fast. A week of holidays has just gone in a flash of an eye.

Unbelievable.

I can’t even remember what I’ve been doing the past few days.

I’ve been going out every single day for the past week except for today.

Under house arrest today. *laughs maniacally*

Not really. The truth is I can’t walk properly at the moment. I limp, not walk.

My knee hurts like mad. My muscles are sore like anything. I think I overdid it.

But I’m going to do it again.

Mum says I’m crazy. Bringing these to myself.

Oh well, it’s not everyday you get to be fourteen, do you?

People whom I’ve been talking to the past few days claim that the holidays are boring.

Me? I absolutely LOVE them.

Other than going out every day, I’ve been reading like a maniac. I’m going to run out of books soon. Understatement of the day.

I never run out of books to read cause I always reread. Mad? There you go.

Let’s see…

These week has been… has been… Unexplainable. Too many adjectives.

It freaks me out when some of you guys say you have tuiton everyday. That’s insane. It’s suppose to be the holidays. A break from all the madness studying.

But hey, who am I to say?

Every year, when it comes to the end of the year, we'll claim that the year has gone in a blink of an eye. Then, the next year, we'll claim the same thing over again. And the next year, and the next. But why do we do that?

I don't even know.

Maybe it's cause we don't know how to appreciate time.

Maybe it's cause we can't wait for another new beginning.

Maybe it's cause we want everything to stop and rewind back to the past.

Maybe it's cause we are overwhelmed with the incidents that occur during that particular year.

I don't know.

I sometimes wish I can forget all the bad times and just dwell on the good, happy times.

But I learn from someone that it's the bad, unhappy, tough times that give you strength to go on even when you don't want to because you know you've been through them and you survive to tell the tale.

Whoa, I really don't know where that came from. It just came out.

You know one thing that I miss doing?

It's writing.

Writing stories and poems.

Now, I can't get myself to do it anymore. There's just something stopping me from doing it.

I still love writing. I do.

I'm going to end here. So I've updated. I did.

Just for laughs.

Toodles.

P.S. Cartoon reruns are fun.

P.P.S. I still miss those too..

Leather shoes.

So let me guess. You'll disappear again without so much as a leather shoe.

Glass slippers are for Cinderella's. So it's leather shoes for you then.

I knew it was coming. Doesn't it always?

Oh well, might as well get use to it. Cause somehow you'll turn up again momentarily before vanishing. It's fun with you around, you're like one of Santa's elves. I don't even know why I use that phrase. Maybe it's cause I've seen lots of Christmas decorations around me and I've been reading too much Archie comics. I ain't complaining, that's for sure. But when will you be sure of staying? Friends are meant to stay. Not disappearing and appearing whenever you like.

For all the good times together, I'll be sure to treasure them. That's for sure. All the midnight chats where we'll just fall asleep by the phone and not bothering till the next day. The non-stop batter on the silly nicknames, the worry buried deep within our hearts uncovered and the secrets splitting at it's reams.

This will do for now. =]

Finally.

To me, this blog is dead.

Should I post or not? I question myself every single time I go online.
When I finally decide to post, my mind goes blank.
Typical me.
I'll make it short.

Why must everything be set around the same time?
It's absolute terror.
An event is one after another.

I can't stand it any longer. If you're using me as a vent to let go of your frustration and anger pent up inside. STOP!!
I'm human too.
Why must you lash out at me every time you're angry or dissatisfied?
Just cause things doesn't go your way, you're using me as the bean bag?
Maybe you should try being one. Then you'll know how it feels.
All the good deeds you did, are they illusions to trick me cause you think I'm fickle-minded?
Just cause you're having a bad day, it doesn't you mean you have the right to lash it out on me.
I rather be anywhere but near you. That's the plain truth.
Cause I don't know how long I can take it anymore.
It takes every ounce of strength inside to stop the tears from flowing.
I'm not sorry I'm not who you wanted me to be. Not at all. I might have last time but not anymore.

I guess that's all for now. Letting it all out felt good.
Sometimes is better not to feel than to feel.
If the person above reads it, well, it's time she did.

Dedication.

Peek-a-boo. Guess what.

Today’s a special ‘occasion’

Yes, we all know it’s the first day of Raya.

But that’s not all. Think, go kill some of your brain cells and think why its special today.

Nearly there?

Oh well, I’ll spare you the suspense and your brain cells.

It’s her birthday today. *points*

Not the trees behind her. HER. The girl. The cute, chubby girl right in front of you!

She turned 14 years younger today. How? Why? You got to ask her. I’m as baffled as you are.

We have known one another since Primary 1. That was 7 years ago.
7 years ago our friendship started and it's still counting.
7 years ago two girls from different classes met during Moral class and they have not turned back since.


Hey, we even graduated together. From Primary school that is. See the banned behind?
It writes "Majlis Graduasi & Jamuan Tahun 6 2006" Prove that we graduated together.



She's smart. Make that very. She's been receiving medals for her smartness since Primary school. Don't play-play with her. Nampak kecik kan? Don't be fooled. She'll easily mash you into potatoes in her studies.


Kalau pandai tentu rajin kan?
Yes, she's very hardworking. We both can be nocturnal animals cause we sleep very late every night. Well, she doesn't have to sleep in class unlike me eventhough she had only a few hours of sleep.




Friends to many. I mean who can resist such cuteness? Definitely not me.
She cares for her friends, thoughtful of them and is great listener. What's more to ask?
She holds a place in our hearts.

Yes, there are times when we disagree. And we squabble. But who doesn't?


She's never short of smiles for you. She's good at cheering people up. You can never be sad for long with her around.


Apparently, a good photographer too. But she's camera-shy. She doesn't like her photographs being taken. Too late. Her pictures are all saved in my computer.


Though there are times she gets easily distracted. By what?
I'll keep that a secret. Maybe she has many admirers, who knows?


She deserves a hug every single day.
I thank God for bringing her into my life. She sure made it worth living.

I hope we'll remain forever friends till we grow old and all out hair turn white and we have wrinkles everywhere.
One day, we'll be sitting on rocking chairs and just stare into the sky.
Then, we'll remenisce about our younger years together.
We'll have a good time then, won't we?

Chick-chack. I got a photo of you.
So if you read this post, remember to do me a favour.
Remember to wish this girl a very Happy Birthday.

I pray that you'll be healthy always. Keep being smart in your studies.
Be happy always. And smile more. You needn't need a reason to smile. =]

I'll end my post here. Toodles.

Maybe. Maybe not.

I feel like blogging. Then I don't.
Oh well...
I'll post a short one today.

I spent my first day of my holiday at Peter's house.
Pearly I know what you're going to say and I know what you did.
Yu Kit and I are going to get you (Pearly) back. *rubs hands in glee* *adds evil laughter*
I can't believe you dared to suggest all those "plans" *speaking to Pearly*
Unbelievable. Unfathomable.
Who knew all of those came from you? Peter must have taught you.
I better find a good hiding place first in case Pearly comes after me with a parang.
Anyway, we didn't do anything that you told Peter. You must be devastated but live up to it. Don't be sad.

Since Pearly couldn't come, it was just Yu Kit, Peter and me. And Fluffy and Pearly. (Peter's sister)
We were suppose to practise but we ended up doing other non-practice related activities. DON'T think dirty. Especially YOU! Yes, you Pearly. I ended up reading Doremon and Shin Chan comics and watching videos on Yu Kit's phone while the both of them watched videos and their private stuff which I won't mention. But it doesn't include me. So off with you're dirty thoughts. Bah...

We watched a movie. Half a movie actually. Night Museum. YK said it was a horrow movie and tried to scare me. Got me totally off-guard but I did not scream. I bet they would have loved it if I did. Then we went to eat our lunch, came back, practised for a while and watched kiddy movies. After that we went back. Long story short.

It was supposed to be a short post but ended up being a not-so-short-one.
I had fun so no regrets except that I wished Pearly was there too so we can have double the fun.
Next time, Pearly, you better make it. Someone wished you were there too. No surprise who that someone was. *winks*

Gotta ciao. Toodles.

Till I post again.

Nerd's read. Storybooks.

Looks like I'm still alive.
No one seems to have updated their blogs. I'm in the no ones' too.
Not anymore.
I'm a little hyper and over the edge thanks to Chris who got it from Vick.
I believe it's contagious. It's called the be-super-duper-hyper syndrome.
Originated from unknown. But Vick caught it from who knows where and passed it to Chris who passed it to me. So there you go. TA-DA!

I'm really tired these days. Not to mention LAZY. Really lazy.
My teacher said I've gone shorter. Is it possible?
All I know is that I've gained weight. Eat, sleep, eat, sleep. That became my daily routine.
I don't want to but I'm so lethargic.

Anyone wants to know how to be smart? It's really easy. I watched Vicki doing it.
Okay, first you need a workbook. Any workbook. Preferably on the subject that's coming out in the exams. Then open the book and put it on your head. Leave it there for as long as you like. You're brain will slowly absorb the questions and answers. Ask Vicki if it works. ROFL.
I just wasted my time writing all that crap. But it was real funny when Vicki did it. Chris and I rubbed the book on her head so she could absorb knowledge faster. Smart, hey?

We're not acquainted no more. Sorry to say. But I can't stand it anymore.

It's a short post but I

Actually it's when I'm free. Or feel like posting which I don't feel like these days.

I rather be hyper-super-duper-happy then depressed and emo.
I'm sick of everyone asking that question. What if I said I wasn't fine. What would you do?
Might as well go with the "I'm fine" answer.
I'm like an emotional wreck. Totally absurd. That coming from a girl who's lost most of the time.
Figures.

I like it when you try to make me happy. I like it when you sing. It makes me happier bit by bit.
Smile. And it passes. So make my day. SMILE. =3

Toodles.

P.S. Thanks for making me feel better. You know who you are. =]
P.P.S. Aina, nak gambar!!

Rants for rats.

I know what to get Chrissy for her birthday.

SANDPAPER and CHALK.

Lots and lots of them.
I bet she'll love them. Think of it as a childhood gift though you're still in your childhood. =]
So Chrissy, how about it?

I knew it would be mind-boggling. It was. It is. That book takes a long time to read. I don't know why. It just does. I usually finish a book in a day. Got so used to it that it feels weird to not finish a book in a day.

I got so sick of it that I don't bother anymore. Why can't you guys just get straight to the damn point? What's the use of twisting and turning the whole thing when you freaking know that you're going to end up hurting her? You won't know how it feels till the same thing occurs to you. You wouldn't want it.

PP, I don't agree with what you did. But you simply wrote what I felt about her. Looks like I'm not the only one who thinks the same way. Every time she does it, I forgive her or should I say them but it doesn't mean I forget about it. I just don't dwell on it. What's the use of reminiscing the past, especially something that makes you angry and frustrated?

I'm becoming very emotional these days. No one knows the whole story.
I just can't seem to say it out. So I'm using this blog as a vent. To keep me sane.
Someday I won't be able to contain it anymore and just burst out crying.
I suggest you to stop reading cause these are all rantings. Nothing but rantings.

We, as in my school, have no cheer team anymore. Thinking of it, it's seems really sadistic.
Obviously I had hoped for something better. I mean come on, performances are a blast but I doubt we'll be going for any this year at the rate we're going. Such a waste. I've gone really rusty.
Back pains are a sore. Refrains you from doing anything.
Pray that I'll heal from the back pains sooner than soon.

I did say earlier in my post that I had a story to tell but I'll keep it for later.

Till happy days come passing by.

P.S. I will talk to you. It's been what, a month?

Plain.

The post before this is very disturbing.
I admit.
My fingers hover over the delete button to delete the post but I'm going to leave it there.
As a reminder to me.

I'm all choked up inside.
It's hard. And it's getting harder. And harder as the days passes by.

Actually I do have a story to post about but someone's pestering me to get off the computer though I just got on it. So I'll keep it short.

My blog is plain. Really plain. And boring. Not to mention. One look at it and you feel the urge to yawn and lay on the bed. Will anyone help me to bring life to it? Say teach me to use blog skins, modify them, make it more lively? I would love to give it a try.

Till the next post.

All's out after all.

Your statement isn’t true. You said an outright lie. And you down right knew it.

Atrociously, you even said it with a cheerful sing-song cheerful voice and added a smirk in the end. What a ravishing end. To me, it was as though you just spewed profanities right in my face.

If I could only shove a pipe down your throat, then you wouldn’t be able to repeat those insulting, hurting, self-inflicting words again. But what’s done is already done. You can’t undo the past. What’s said has already been said.

It's hard to stand on shifting sand
It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night
You can't be free if you don't reach for help
You cant love if you don’t love yourself

I know your intentions. It doesn’t hurt anymore to be left out. ‘Perfer et obdura; dolor hic tibi proderit olim’ Besides, three’s a crowd. Three people with strong personalities will just end up frequently clashing into one another. Sure, you two merged into one. I don’t mind. I don’t envy you guys. I don’t feel a thing. I respected you two. But I think you’re going way overboard with you’re inconsiderate, thoughtless talks. I often pondered, you two had each other throughout the tough and challenging process. You two were often one. I had two more other with me. We were a trio while you both were twins. But now I’m left alone. It feels so vulnerable. It’s like being stripped of everything, standing in the dark with no one there to comfort you or tell you that everything is going to be all right.

I don’t need your pity. And I don’t want it. None. Nada. Glitch. If only the other two had pass. We’ll be having tons of fun now. But who am I to complain? I’ve learn so much.

It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground
Its like the world is silent though I know it isnt true
Its like the breath of Jesus right here in this room

To be tougher. To not mind your insulting retorts. To keep my mouth shut cause you don’t deserve my breath. I’ll just be wasting it. To learn to be on my own. To count on my own abilities. To think. Hard. To learn to forgive you. To smile as though it doesn’t mean the world to me. To be tough. To stop the tears from flowing. To learn to trust in God. To learn to seek Him. To sum it all, God is always there for me as long as I have faith in him so I should SMILE for whatever’s worth. Why bother worrying.

Whew, all’s out. Don’t I feel relieved. Everyone I mentioned above is going to remain anonymous. I like it that way. Then everyone can go on thinking or believing that everyone lives their happy, peaceful blissful life. Or that maybe Kelly needs some counseling. Oh well… Shucks. I’m perfectly fine, emotionally. The same can’t be said physically. But I’m healing. So smile. *Trust me, you’ll get sick of this word, thanks to me. =]

P.S. Hey KH, I should have bought you the pink one. Then you can show all the girls you’re gayness. ROFL.

P.P.S. That was Latin. If you want to know what it means. Ask me.

Blank. Or not.

There’s a lot going on my mind right now. I don’t know where to start.

I skipped school today. Not the first.
Oh well.. I had fun NOT going to school for a change.
I went to the chiropractor to treat my back. It still hurts a little and I have to go back again.
But I can still jump and prance around like a bunny. The pangs of pain comes and goes.
The treating process was pain. At the beginning.

I went to KLCC after going to the chiropractic and my mum did some chores.
We went with two of my aunt's friends from Greece. As usual, we walked.
Whenever my aunt returns from England the whole household becomes happy, agitated and excited. I absolutely love the atmosphere. It's the time when you get to see smiles lighting up the faces of my family members.
I asked Maria and her sister whose name I can't remember, it's complicating questions about Greece and the traditions, culture and weather. Mostly I listen to the adults talking. You get to learn a lot just by listening.
I bought books too. Hard to resist. So I have lots of distraction now.

I'm going to try. It's hard I know. But you told me it's always hard at the beginning. Ain't it.
It keeps getting harder and harder. Maybe it's cause I'm not passionate about it anymore. But I still enjoy playing. So that counts for something. I should spent more time practicing.

HAC is limited to 4 people per centre. So it means I can't go. Cause the main priority are new people. Sheesh. I want to meet back all the friends I made last year. And now I can't. Unless I help out. That is only if they need help. But since they already have a HAC committee, my help won't be needed. Shucks.

Being happy ain't hard. It just counts on your perspective of life. She makes happy really easy. It makes you want to smile along. Why not?

So I'm going to smile for whatever's worth.

Toodles. For now.

Till I post again. =]

Petrify.

When you were inflicted by the similar incident,

My head went whirring rekindling the past.

An unpleasant memory comes hitting me hard.
It hadn't been long when it occurred.
I went on thinking uncontrollably.
Mind thinking, thoughts racing.
I refused to dwell on it but my head had other opinions.
Slowly, painfully it seeps into my mind.
As night came, nightmares creep into my dreams.
Hard as I try to not think about it, I couldn't.
I just had to.
You reminded me of it.
Nightmares terrify me in my sleep.
I want them to stop.
But I can't.
Till I learn to let go of the past.
And head on to the future.
Just as the nightmares began to fade away.
The same incident strikes you.
And I saw how it affected you.
Then, I knew the nightmare would be back again.
More horrifying and terrifying.

It's not really a post.
This suddenly came to me when I heard what happened to her.
It just brought back these horrible truths.
I'll blog a long post next time. Soon. I hope.
Oh, my phone's working again.
Got to go.
Toodles.

Treasure trove.

I just absolutely adore this picture.

The three of us together once again.

We've been friends since Primary 1.
And it means a lot to me.
I don't why I'm suddenly bringing this up.
Maybe it's cause I was flicking through my pictures in the computer and this made me feel very nostalgic.
So much has changed over the years.
It's hard to comprehend.
But I still you guys very much. We've pretty much gone different paths now.
Same form, same class but different paths.
Guess we always had different personalities.
That's what make us special.
I can go on and on actually but I want to keep it short and simple.
There may be an imaginary boundary surrounding us now, but I still want to let you guys know that you still matter to me.
Once a friend always a friend right?
Besides who else will make me look tall if it weren't for you two? *laughs to self*
This must have made you two mad but I don't mean it. *laughs louder*
May our friendship reign forever.

"We are too busy looking at our scars and bruises that we forget how to forgive. But if we took the time to glimpse into someone else's live, even the unforgivable can be forgiven."

P.S. Ivan, I have nothing to comment on your blog except that it made me think. Think over my views and changed my perception a little. I realized a little more. You're posts always make me think. Is that good?

Toodles.

Blues.

Click-clack, click-clack, click-clacky

Sounds heard from a distance

The whirring of the air-conditioner

Distant voices heard

Slowly fading into the background

Fingers moving ungracefully

As they begin to grow numb

From the chillness

Rubbing them together

She continued her task

Keying everything in

Hearing footsteps approaching

And walking away

And the routine begin anew

I don't know what made me type that out.
A chord just striked in my head.
I'm down in the dumps now and I'm trying to make it go away.
I don't know why I'm in the blues, I just am.
It has nothing to do with ANYONE, just me, myself.
Anyway, I haven't been on the computer these past few days so this blog was left abandoned.

I just want to let everyone know that I have no phone to use at the moment.
So if you sent a text or tried to call me but got voice mail instead, it's because my phone has gave up on me.
You won't expect a reply from me, not till I have no idea when.
I'll let you guys know when it's working again.

I stayed back today to do the SSDM thing.
Apparently someone was suppose to help me for while but didn't even turn up.
Expected of it though. It's not like that person will even realize it or bother.
I did it by myself. Faster though but strange since it was too quiet. No squabbling and the constant teasing.
Was used to it yesterday. All the chaos and havoc the four of us created in the office.
Peter, Yu Kit, Pearly and I spent the whole day yesterday from morning till 4.30pm doing the SSDM.
After school,
Peter was half-dead by the afternoon.
Yu Kit managed to get away cause he had Chinese class and went back after several minutes.
Pearly had to manage the St. John people since she was in-charge.
I did most of it. I had St. John first aid class but I skipped most of it.
The work is really taxing. And not to mention, troublesome.
But it still has to be done.
Like everything else.

That's all for now. Don't feel like typing anymore.

I wish I could see the dazzling smile once more. To make my day perfect for friends like you are a straw in a haystack.

Dash of Luck.

Everything that occurred on Tuesday seemed surreal. To me that is.

As most of you know, reading is my passion. So its comes naturally to adore books.
Just the glimpse of books, especially fat, thick bounded books makes my heart soar with joy.
If I could spend my whole life reading just for the pleasure of it, I would.

Anyway, back to the topic, I went to KLCC with my mum. We walked there since my mum's car was still being repaired. It's near actually since they created a link bridge from Pavillion. Around 30 minutes walk? Depends on your speed of walking. I went to Kinokuniya and bought some books. They had this going on:

If you can read what's at the bottom, then you'll know that you'll get a RM 10 voucher with every purchase of RM 80. (Clickeh to enlarge)

My mum had already paid for my books and I was browsing through a book when a Western couple or whom some of you call 'angmohs' approached my mum. They offered three vouchers to my mum saying that they will be leaving that day so it would be a waste to throw away the vouchers. I was practically beaming at them when they made the offer. RM 30 vouchers. And it's Kinokuniya vouchers. How fantastic can it get?

Which sums:
RM 40 Kinokuniya vouchers;
RM 42 MPH vouchers;
RM 30 Times vouchers.

Thats totally SUBLIME!!
I'm going to spend them really wisely and make the most out of them.

Well, thats all for the day. May God bless the kindred souls of the couple. They made my day and days to come.

P.S. I had fun hanging with you guys yesterday. My bowling sucks but the laughs and jokes we share, irreplaceable.

P.P.S. Have fun in KK, Callister! Tell me about it when you get back. *waits patiently for stories*

Till more outings, unexpected twist of events, IM-ing and reading.

Toodles.

I can't....

REMEMBER.

what day today is.

How awesome is that? That means I'm totally in the holiday spirit.
Cause when the oh-so-very-short holidays are over, things come tumbling or should I say rolling over me again. Time for the chaos-ness, choices and undeterred decisions. That's life. I guess. For now.

I spent practically the whole day out today. I've been cooped up for too long. My mum's car is malfunctioning so we won't have a car to use for a day or two. No worries though, there's always public transport. Other than saving money ( believe me, its much more cheaper), we get to reduce gas emissions from vehicles. So frankly, we're playing a part in saving the environment.

Yes I admire and love:

Won't deny it.

Anyway, after sending my brother to college and my sister to my cousin's house, my mum and I sent the car to the mechanic before taking a bus to Mid Valley. It felt great to be out. We window-shopped and walked continuously for hours. Waited for my sister to finish her exam. Then we walked to The Gardens. It was around 3 something to 4 then. We decided to return home so we took a bus. We intended to take a bus directly to Lot 10 but after waiting for some time we decided to take the bus to Kota Raya.

Kota Raya was a really a new atmosphere. Made me wish I had a DSLR with me. Capturing pictures here would be worth it. It's a like a frozen time-machine. If you get what I meant. I told my mum that Central Market sold lots of art stuff and my mum said it's true. Then incredulously asked if I ever been there. I said I don't think so. I'll love to go there someday. With a camera of course. I have a feeling I'll get good pictures.

Okay, back to where I stopped. At Kota Raya, we took a bus to Lot 10. However, when the bus stopped at Pavillion, we went down cause I didn't want to return home yet. So we walked around Pavillion and window shopped again. After some time, we got tired and headed home. But I got my mum to bring me to CK Music before that. To check the store out. I wished they had lessons, then it'll be really convenient for me. Oh well.

I'm not dead-beat tired. Maybe a little. But I plan to walk to KLCC with my mum tomorrow if she's up to it and then to Times Square. I'm overly optimistic and ambitious that it'll occur. We'll see how it goes. I don't mind. I didn't get what I wanted today but it was a change not having a something to pull you back.

That's it for today. I'll wrap it up before my parents come storming out, demanding I go to bed cause it's apparently late.

Sorry Gwen for canceling our plans. I was really looking forward to it cause my body needed it. What a time for the car to give up on us. We'll make it up someday.

"I'll bring you more than a song for a song in itself is not what you have required.

You search much deeper within through the way things appear.

You're looking into my heart."

Toodles.

Till quality time, pampering, determination and never ending spirit.

Unbelievable.

I tripped and fell down the stairs.
Can you believe it?
I know I'm a klutz but I never though I was that klutzy.
My ankle is apparently sprained but I can apply pressure on it
The fact that it all happened right before the holidays doesn't help much.
I'm trying my best to hide the pain and pretend that nothing happened. Reverse psychology.

Grr.. I'm getting on my own nerves. Heard of it? *laughs to self*
My plans for the holidays ruined. Guess I have to come up with something else.
No matter what I'm going to scrape the best out of the holiday. It's short but at least it's something.

Last minute cramming just killed nearly all my brain cells. Now my brain needs time to recuperate. So holidays is when you laze around at home doing absolutely nothing. Beneficial for your braincells. Proven by Kelly. You should give it a try.

I don't know how I came up with that. Just did. Got to ciao now. Toodles.

Till klutziness, solace, happiness and gratitude.

Out of Place.

I'm cranky these days.

Yup I admit it.

I don't really know what to do.
If we opt to do what we said we wished we did, I know we're going to regret it.
But if we decide to go on with it, will you guys work together to make it a success?
Whatever the few of us planned and fought over was just a complete waste of crap. We shouldn't even bother with it in the first place if this was what we got in return.

I shouldn't even be online now but since I'm already on the computer, why not?
Exams are going to be over in two times and then it's time to hit the books.
Story books, specifically. You might think how would I be so eager to touch a book when I just finished my exams? The only answer I can give is that Breaking Dawn is screaming at me to open and feel its pages from my table.

"Can you whisper in my ear.
Let me know its all right."

Vick, I'm glad I opened up to you. We both feel helpless when it comes to helping someone you call a friend. That's the way things are, I guess. I'll always want the best for you and I'm sure you know it. So go with the flow. You'll never know what you'll find at the end of the rainbow till you reach it. Your words comfort me and your gentle pats pulled back into pieces. Small you may be but big at heart.

Sean, it was unexpected. But you realized all along. Thanks for today. You know I'll get over it. I always do. Plus I have an extra shoulder to lean on to right?

I'm sure we all need this break to settle things out and figure ourselves what it was actually all about.

Remember the times we spend on these? Spilling our dreams and hopes to each other. I'll always cherish them.

Till more ravings, quality time spent together, wanderings and thoughts.

Worth your Effort.

I wish I was on the edge of the world.

Then I'll SCREAM and SHOUT till my heart's content!!

I though I could handle that situation. Boy, was I wrong.
Didn't take long for me to spiral down into the abyss of darkness.
Wished I had the courage to find solace.

I don't know whats the point of me pressing on. Is it even worth my effort? Or will it just be a complete waste of time. It leaves me wondering.

This past two weeks has had it's ups and downs. It's going to take sometime before I begin to trust in you again. The conflict that occurred left a deep, long scar within me. I've learn to forgiven but forgetting it and pretending that it was nothing but a mere joke? I can't do that. I can't will myself to do it. What's been done has been done. You can't erase the past, just go through today and seek tomorrow. Time is all I ask for I am still haunted by the incident. Flashes of it is still vivid in my mind. I believe time will tell.

It's really hectic. All the stress is mounting it. I know all my other friends are facing the same situation I'm going through. But I don't think I can hang on any longer. I've been bombarded with conflicting conflicts one after another. It's hard. I know I can go through it.

09.08.08- New South Wales English
10.08.08- First Aid Test. Thank God it's postponed
12.08.08- School exam

Holidays are going to be a blast for me. But it has also another meaning. I'm sure some of you would know what it is. We'll go through it together. Like we always do. Certain people surprises me every passing day. Little gestures make me smile. Lifting the veil that tends to show what I'm not. I love it when YOU smile. It radiates the feeling that its okay, everything is going to be alright and you'll go through it since you're a tough one. I wish I could tell you that but I never found the guts too.

A moment suspended in time. That's how it seemed now.

There was something Connal told me. It's still ringing in me. "If you wish to trust people, Kelly, you have to learn to trust yourself". Complicated? Not to me. It’s true. If you really think. Cause the truth is there right within.

Signing off now. A very impatient sister in sight.

Till more hope, tough-goings, wonders, quotes and secret smiles.

Rush of flurriness.

It's been ages since I last blogged.
Lots have happened. A mixture of good and bad.
I know I've been keeping lots of unhappy things in me.
I can't find a vent to vent it all out. How long will this last?

Last Saturday, I went for a performance at Putrajaya with my team. Slept late the day before and woke up freaking early the next day. It was a school day and there wasn't a single person to be seen except Lai Hoong and Virgine. We were like walking zombies anyway. Walking without a direction, eyes half-opened, our hairs in a mess (especially Virginie, it looked like she just got out of bed!)
We shared the same bus with SBU. Seriously, the cheerleaders from SBU are super-duper energetic. Throughout the journey to Putrajaya, they made noise 24/7. Looks like I needn't need my Ipod after all. With live singers right behind me.

The performance was pretty okay, the crowd was sort of a bore to be honest. And the guys are perverts. I didn't say that out of pleasure, we heard them snickering and saying some stuff with our own ears.Oh, well... thank goodness we wore tights.
We were the last to perform. There were 5 cheerleading teams. Dynamitez, Unggul, Pirates, Shirtliff and SouthAnchorz.
The stage was really small so we had to reduce the stunts. And keep colliding with one another.

We went home early since the place was boring. There was no shopping mall in sight.
The building that I first saw when I step foot on the area was Bangunan Jabatan Alam Sekitar. Could you just say awesome?
We were schedule to go home at 2pm but after some adamant and persisting complains, we managed to leave around 11 something. We reached school before it ended. Near noon so I went back to class. And Aina called me a NERD for that. I took that as a compliment though. *brawls with laughter*

After school. Credits to Sean.

Sean. =]

San.

On Sunday, I went for taekwondo. I haven't been for taekwondo for months.
I've gone really rusty. I forgot my patterns and my kickings' are absolutely horrible.
I can't believe my master remembered me! He called me on Friday and said that there was some sort of shooting. There were people from Astro who came.
It was a great experience though I was all jittery since there were so many black belts.
While I did my pattern with three other girls, everyone stared at us. And I sparred with my master's daughter. She's actually afraid of me. I think its cause I'm the only one there who doesn't listen to her. Can't blame me for it..

Anyway, if you want to catch the taekwondo demonstration on Astro, you can watch channel 304 (I have no idea what channel this is) on 08.08.08. It will be at 9pm. The tittle of the show is Merry-Go-Round. *laughs to self*
08.08.08 is the grand opening of the Olympics so Ta-da. No one's going to watching anything that hasn't got anything to do with the Olympics. Perfect timing.
Since I have no Astro, I won't be watching it. Even if I do, I would rather catch the Olympics. I'm sure anyone in their right mind would.

I have lots to blog about but I think it's best if I didn't.
I just realized it, most people blog about emo-ish stuff while I do the opposite. If you actually notice. It's unhealthy but I can't find the words to write the emo-ish stuff out.
To me, it's as though I'm pasting a very LARGE sign that says, " Beware! Emo posts are up. Super boring! So don't bother reading. "
Doesn't matter though. I don't know how boring this blog can get.
Someday, just someday, I'm going to find the urge to delete this blog with the click of a mouse.
Just wait. You'll know when it happens.

Nights. The lights flickers off. Kelly trips and fell. Opps...
Nothing hurt except her ego. Lol.

Till more performances, shootings, cam-whorings, walking zombies and vents.

~ Signing off.

Added bonus.

It's been like two weeks since cheer competition has past but I'll post the remaining pictures I have with me. It was all taken by Gwen's camera so credits to her. =]

Jien

The judges.

Micheal or something. One of the judges too. Gwen said she shouldn't have taken this picture. Lols.

Chi Wei. One of my coaches too.

A hug for her.

Mr Chong, our gym coach who cracks crazy jokes.

I was forced by Gwen to take this pictures. She made me. Blame her. *innocent face*

Life's been hectic now, as Eugene said. Well, what he said is true.
Exams are coming up and I'm having a performance this Saturday.
It all spells busy, busy, busy.
But I like how it is now.
Maybe a break once in a while.
Actually my butt hurts while I'm typing this so I'll make it short. [ Don't ask. ]
I might update about the performance.
Toodles.

Till I get a break and lay myself on the grass.