Uncertainty.

It's puzzling how the mind works.
Lately, she's been overpowered by the urge to quit everything she's doing as she doubt she can go through it anymore.
Giving up would be easier. But she don't even have the courage to do that.
It's amazing how one can regain power over themselves as they learn to stand right up after a drastic fall that leaves a big mark within themselves.

Let me tell you a story.
Once there was a girl who was around 4 or 5 years old. She was carefree, outgoing, bubbly and always smiling like it was the last time she would smile. This fragile, naive girl never stood still as she runs around freely without any chains binding her to the troubles all around her. As her inquisitive mind thought her to explore everything around her, she got into trouble easily. One day, she got scolded by a teacher for being curious of the colors on bricks. She burst into tears. Big, fat sloppy tears. She stood there crying. The teacher bend down and hugged her tightly, comforting her and telling her that it was alright. It was then she found solace, the comfort of someone being there for you when you know that you weren't wrong.

When this girl grew older, she became more hyperactive, bubbly and offered more smiles to everyone around her. She believed in herself, that no matter what, she could count on herself. One day, however, she got into some serious mess. She cried secretly without anyone knowing. She knew deep in her heart that no matter what she has to be strong and keep going on. She told herself, "Let everyone give up hope on me, but I of all people should never do so." Since then, she was more cautious. The curiosity and spirited character that once resided in her slowly faded. Now, she's a turmoil of mixed characters. All she needs to do is to retrieve her true self back. Living in a lie all this while proved to be unbearable. She often wondered, what happened to myself? All she gets is just an eerie silence.

I often wondered what happened to this free-spirited girl that was always smiling and faced whatever troubles with an open-heart and a determined attitude. People were often in awe of her. But now I have naught a single-idea where she went. Maybe she's still in the girl, buried deep down inside her heart. All her anxieties, worries and negative thinking must have been a load for her. I pray that someday, somehow, she'll find who she truly is and realize that she has the potential to shine brighter than any star in the sky.

The only thing I have to tell her is that, there's always someone there for her eventhough she doesn't know it. Smile more.