This wasn't what it was suppose to be.

It's as if you never even exist...

You know, in the end, it's really up to yourself.
You can run. Run as far as your legs would take you.
But how far can you actually run before you start running away from yourself?
Somewhere along the way, you stop striving.
Somewhere along the way, you stop trying.
Somewhere along the way, you start dropping what you love doing. One by one.
Somewhere along the way, giving up becomes the best answer to everything.
Somewhere along the way, you shun everyone who loves and cares about you.
Somewhere along the way, nothing matters anymore, even living.

That's what it's like.

In the end, it's all up to you, yourself.